♥now

♥ some things were better left unsaid.

But some things are better said later on. ♥

We finally talked about it, Told about how we felt

how we've changed each other and what things changed.

Though a big step is ahead of us.

Will we be able to overcome it?

So many people have faith in us.

Especially him.

But where's mine? i think i left it somewhere behind.

Thinking about it, i'm gonna be 21 this year. and what's life about?

We think about the things we've done and regretted.

Things we did not do and regret not doing it.

Things we wanted to do and didn't do.

One thing i learn is,

Self confidence is really important.

I'm not asking all of us to be all snobbish and think we're the greatest,

But the self confidence of knowing what to do.

How is one person mature and how is one person considered immature?

i may be smart to you but dumb to him.

but most importantly, is how i think about myself.

A few things have been crossed out from the list that i want to do.

coming to australia [and i'm lovin' it]

having an iphone

and next is gonna ride a horse. like properly.

Someone made me realize yesterday,

Life is all about what we really want to do.

But not what we don't want to do.

So. now, my aim of life?

Get what i want. and live life the way i want it.

♥♥

tear.

♥ i feel insecure. ♥

tell me what to do.

what can ease the pain away.

you've stabbed me right into the heart.

and all i can do is just sit in my room and cry.

i can't ever get a hug nor a kiss.

i can't ever lean on your shoulder.

Tell me what to do.

it hurts so badly.

Even when u've pulled the knife out.

it still hurts.

it does.

why.

♥i don't know what to say right now. ♥

i'm just oh so all confused.

all i did was just make a statement like i always do.

that's it.

and you just got so offended.

i wish i was there to explain things to you.

but i'm not.

now i regreted it.

i should have just shut up and not say anything at all.

that's it.

._.

*sigh*

i'm so scared right now.

fear has come back to me.

and all i have is my teddy to hug.

that's it.

boom.

♥ Found this old picture taken by the boyfriend when i was sleeping. ♥

♥ i miss my teddy. >.< ♥

random♥

♥ It's been a really quiet day. ♥

Hubby Liew.. u just broke my heart. T____T

*sigh*

i don't know.. being really emotional right now.

I miss him so much.

i wanna talk to him. hug him.

cuddle up with him.

i wanna cry cz he's not around.

and i wanna be selfish and ask him to come.

But i know it doesn't work that way.

♥ it's been really weird. ♥

People have been saying i've changed, but i don't see where.

A really good friend of mine told me yesterday when i asked if i did change.

and she told me

'Yes, you've changed. into a much happier person''.

Well, maybe she's right.

Partially i feel that i finally can make my own decision,

in a place where i want to be.

People are getting homesick around here.

But i don't really. Just that i miss him.

If he were here, everything would be so perfect.

But then somehow,

my thoughts just wander further and further.

Will we make it?

I'm so scared that it wouldn't.

I expected the worst out of the worst when i came here,

But things turned out better than i expected. [i presume]

But one thing i've learn is that, i can't hold back everything.

and i want to be selfish.

But i'll let time and him decide it all.

and i'll keep the selfishness inside me.

♥♥

sleeping beauty

♥ So. it's been a really sleepy day. ♥

I woke up at 12, had lunch, slept at 2. woke up at 6 plus. had dinner. And that's how i spent my day.

heheeee

♥♥

♥ So i changed my blog layout into a really simple one.

a white background with my photo as the headlines.

HMMM.

i'm such a undecided girl.

=DDDDD

i changed it cz my old blog's layout had some problems and it was taking too long to load.

ugh.

i hate that.

anywa,y hope the new blog layout is nice.

♥♥

Thank you

♥You really put a smile on my face.

I was so lonely the whole day

and you finally was able to chat with me.

Though it's just a while.

But you really made me smile.

Made me felt as though you are here with me.

Thank you very much.

Hope you're enjoying yourself there. ♥

♥ Today, went to city to meet up with Liying and Jacent.

Jia Min was suppose to come but she couldn't make it at the end. ♥

♥♥

the weather today was windy. the sun wasn't out. =)

♥ i bought a new belly piercing. =)) ♥♥

love it.

saw it 3 weeks ago but hesitated till now.

♥
♥ Finally bought a new bag too. it was on sale.

and it wasn't ugly.

LOLZ.

♥♥


♥This is what we do when we are too bored. ♥

Other than being Facebook? Blog.

Do assignments and works.

And kill time.

♥♥

♥ Today was Studio class.. i brought my Mackie♥ cz we needed to present our short video..
compare that imac to mine. LOLZ.♥


♥ all was well, better than i expected.
but there are things i really need to work up on. =) ♥







♥ bb, rmb it took u forever to search for that shirt? LOLZ.
LOOK!!
HAHAHAHAHHAHAA ♥
♥

♥ Pictures not mine. ♥

♥ snow? nahhh.... i wish. lolz.

on monday morning, it was bright sunny, himud, hot and warm. But all of the sudden, the dark clouds came.

I rushed over to the mall to get panadol before it start raining and bought myself a red umbrella too. ♥♥

But, when i stepped out, it started to storm, ice cubes falling everywhere. drains flooded

cars alarm were off.

Some of the places had power cut

and internet became slow and some couldn't even use it.

♥♥

The thunder came.

Lighting came.

It poured and flooded the ground floor flats.

We on the other hand on the first floor were lucky,

But windows were like waterfalls and we couldn't even see what was outside.

♥ I wish u were here, cz i hated the thunder,

I had my headphones on,

and ignored the world.

but i'm too selfish to ask u

♥♥♥

♥ Me don't like thunder. ♥

Go away.

♥ There was once a goody-goody girl who was a little snobbish and thought she was the best.

Being the nice girl, she was always catching all the naughty once and reporting them to the teacher.

It's natural how girls avoid her, stay away from her, or bitch about her.

And years has passed, this girl is now a wild-life partying girl.

It really reminds me and though how she was back in those days, and now she's just different.

I'm not here to judge anyone,

but people do change over the years.

Some not so much,

and some change to someone you won't even believe how they were last time.

♥♥

♥

♥ Adventure world. ♥

Ytd, me, row, saj and Jullian went to Adventure World.

♥♥

So here are some really random pictures.

Alice Not in wonderland anymore. ♥

♥ Finally watched Alice in Wonderland with Liying, Jia min and Shu Hwa. ♥

♥♥

love the grinning cheshire cat it's so fluffy and cool.

hehez.

I am NOT obsess over Johnny Deep. But i just find his make up really fascinating.

♥♥

♥ Those who haven't watch it, you have to.

well unless if you aren't really big fan's of fantasies and Once upon a time story.

But the graphics are really nice.

me love.

♥♥♥

♥ I know it's nothing much baby. ♥

But i'm sorry i can't buy u anything,

but i'm happy when u're happy. =)))

Hope this video puts a smile on your face.

♥♥

♥ In the middle of the night,

i wanna call u,

But then to realize, you are having fun.

and even if i called u,

what more can i say?

i really wish i'm there with u.

Things would be so much better.

what's this feeling inside me,

i really do not know.

i can hardly breathe,

and i'm missing u so much.

Noone could be better than u,

Noone, could care as much as you,

maybe that is why you are my boyfriend,

the only person i can talk to.♥

♥i miss the times,

when you'll just crawl up to me,

asking me what's bothering me.

And even if i didn't want to say,

u'll make me smile.♥

But right now, missing u is what's happening.

i don't know how long will this go.

i could stay up all night,

because i just can't fall asleep,

staring at my empty bed,

wishing if u were there.

this post might sound mushy

and it doesn't sound logic at all,

but i really wanna cry,

and cuddle in your arms.

♥♥

♥ I miss u. ♥

This feeling inside me.

i really don't know how to say.

i feel so sick.

and i miss u.

i'm most prob lovesick.

a really bad one.

♥ weather has been really hot.

♥ Another update. ♥ ♥ ♥

♥ So, had two classes in the design labs with all NEW IMAC's!!! .♥

ahh. lovely. love.y ♥

♥ And oh here comes the stress.. three chapters consisting 94 pages by this friday.

T_______T

die mou?

i haven't read like in ages ok..

♥ mua text books. ♥

so bored.

so lazy.

♥ i found random pictures of me during the holidats when carol was back. ♥

♥ How i miss my long hair. ♥

First♥ring

♥ First assesment. and first class of jewellery design.♥

how to make a ring. lolz.

♥♥

♥ wasn't easy at first. ♥

cz metal are NOT soft! lolz.

but i manage to do it

♥♥

proud of myself.

♥♥

today

♥ Went to Carousel today. ♥

with liying and shu hwa.

♥ and camwhored with them. lolz.

more like i was taking pictures of them.

happy liying.

♥ then after when i reach back,

i met up with Row and went to KFC. ♥

♥♥♥
♥♥ krushers.♥♥

Row had two.

lolz

♥♥♥ love