i found this

I found this from facebook. pretty old. Ignore the forwarding part. LOL. i don't really believe in that. 

ARIES - The Aggressive

Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny.. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, and family is very important to an aries. Aries are known for being generous and giving. Addictive. Loud. Always has the need to be ‘Right’. Aries will argue to prove their point for hours and hours. Aries are some of the most wonderful people in the world.. 16 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

TAURUS - The Tramp

Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight. Fight for what they want. Can be annoying at times, but for the love of attention. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. They can be self centered and if they want something they will do anything to get it. They love to sleep and can be lazy. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth! 15 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

GEMINI - The Twin

Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners. Very Good at confusing people… Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Geminis will not take any crap from anyone. Geminis like to tell people what they should do and get offended easily. They are great at losing things and are forgetful. Geminis can be very sarcastic and childish at times and are very nosey. Trustworthy. Always happy. VERY Loud. Talkative. Outgoing. VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE. 9 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

CANCER - The Beauty

MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. A Cancer’s Love is one of a kind.. Very romantic.. Most caring person you will ever meet in your life. Entirely creative Person, most are artists and insane, respectfully speaking. They perfected sex and do it often. Extremely random. An Ultimate Freak. Extremely funny and is usually the life of the party. Most Cancers will take you under their wing and into their hearts where you will remain forever. Cancers make love with a passion beyond compare. Spontaneous. Not a Fighter, But will kick your ass good if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to! 12 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

LEO - The Lion

Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Usually happy but when unhappy tend to be grouchy and childish. A Leo’s problem becomes everyone’s problem. Most Leos are very predictable and tend to be monotonous. Knows how to have fun.. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Very predictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

VIRGO - The One that Waits

Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word.. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. A pushover. Loves to gamble and take chances. Needs to have the last say in everything.. They think they know everything and usually do. Respectful to others but you will quickly lose their respect if you do something untrustworthy towards them and never regain respect. They do not forgive and never forget. The one and only. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

LIBRA - The Lame One

Nice to everyone they meet. Their love is one of a kind. Silly, funny and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! However, not the kind of person you want to mess with…you might end up crying. Libras can cause as much havoc as they can prevent. Faithful friends to the end. Can hold a grudge for years. Libras are someone you want on your side. Usually great at sports and are extreme sports fanatics. Very creative. A hopeless romantic. 9 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

SCORPIO - The Addict

EXTREMELY adorable. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Will try almost anything once. Loves to be pampered. Energetic. Predictable. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want.. Attractive. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Loves to party but at times to the extreme. Loves the smell and feel of money and is good at making it but just as good at spending it! Very protective over loved ones. HARD workers. Can be a good friend but if is disrespected by a friend, the friendship will end. Romantic. Caring.. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One

Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found.. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. A loner most of the time. Loses patience easily and will not take crap. If in a bad mood stay FAR away. Gets offended easily and remembers the offense forever. Loves deeply but at times will not show it, feels it is a sign of weakness. Has many fears but will not show it. VERY private person. Defends loved ones with all their abilities. Can be childish often. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in bed..!!! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover

Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Grouchy at times and annoying to some. Lazy and love to take it easy. But when they find a job or something they like to do they put their all into it. Proud, understanding and sweet.

Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to win against other signs especially Gemini’s in sports. Likes to cook but would rather go out to eat at good restaurants.

Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart. 24 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

AQUARIUS - Does It In The Water

Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind, loves being in long-term relationships. Can be clumsy at times but tries hard. Will take on any project. Proud of themselves in whatever they do. Messy and unorganized. Procrastinators. Great lovers, when they’re not sleeping. Extreme thinkers. Loves their pets usually more than their family. Can be VERY irritating to others when they try to explain or tell a story. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter but will Knock your lights out.. 2 years of bad luck if you do not forward

PISCES - The Partner for Life

Caring and kind. Smart. Likes to be the center of attention. Very organized. High appeal to opposite sex. Likes to have the last word. Good to find, but hard to keep. Passionate, wonderful lovers. Fun to be around. Too trusting at times and gets hurt easily. VERY caring. They always try to do the right thing and sometimes gets the short end of the stick. They sometimes get used by others and get hurt because of their trusting. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good sense of humor!!! Thoughtful. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. Good friend to other but needs to be choosy on who they allow their friends to be. 5 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

sing-a-pore

I just came back from my KL-singapore trip. 

First trip of the year. and it's been great. 

Drove down To KL with hubby Last Wednesday. 19/01/11

on Saturday, 22/01/11 we took the bus From KL to Singapore. 

5 hours.. equivalent to my trip to Perth.

Though i twisted my jaw and ended up with a stiff neck by sleeping at a weird/wrong position.

Thus ending me to have a jaw pain for the next/past few days.

But still, i had fun and i don't think i would wanna list out all the details of everything

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I love you baby

 Let's go to Singapore AGAIN. =D

Never ending putting a smile on my face. 

Bringing me and showing me the best food =)

Having fun with me and letting me act silly and like a kid freely. =)

Sharing food with me. 

LAUGH with me. 

Showing me new/nice stuff

Shopping together with me. 

Buying me presents. 

I LOVE YOU BABY

I love every moment that we have spent together. 

Every trip that we've gone together.

Every picture that we've taken together. 

Every drive that we've had together,

Every question that we've stumbled together.

Every place we've been together,

Every street that we've cross together. 

And every single little thing that we've done together. 

you put a smile on my face regardlessly. 

All it takes is you to smile and wink at me. 

Or just look at me. 

I know at times you do have your bad moods too,

but i will always smile to brighten up things. 

This time, this trip has been wonderful,

Although it isn't our first time going to Singapore. 

But being able to go to Universal studio with you, walking around and cam-whoring with a low battery camera, and a painful set of feet. 

On top of everything around us. raining, wrong shots. Big round, close rides,
I still had fun with you. 

I can still rmb myself jumping up and down like a little kid. 

and the food, oh! the food!

although it wasn't just you and me. But i'm glad it was with you, 

Because if it wasn't you, i won't have the chance and the choices to be able to reach mouth orgasm. 

ROFLMAO

I love how we've walked 30 minutes at the end of the day to reach home. 

I could still remember the first time we've walked 2 hours and ended up exploring the night city of Singapore instead of rushing from one place to one place. 

Being amazed at the architecture and comparing places. 

There's so many more things that i've done with you and want to do with you. 

The times we had, i will remember. 

The time of our lives, will live on baby. 

HAHAHAA. i am damn hyper right now at 3am in the morning. 

Perth is next on baby. and where's our next vacation trip?

holiday.

Off to singapore for a few days with love =)

Don't miss me. =) 

will come back with more pictures and updates. 

Something else

Today, I am going to blog about somethin I never had the chance to blog or say. Never really found to moment to write it I guess. Sorry if it's late but I guess you see it.

Last year, was one hell of a year. If I was given a chance, I would turn back and do things differently. But I guess what we've got is to move forward and learn from the past.

I guess some people DID really learn from the past.

Last year I turned 21. People asked how do I feel and how did I celebrate it. Let's just say I didn't feel any older or like it was any big deal. I didn't have a party bash or anything. But I had the world's beat boyfriend who flew all the way from Malaysia to Perth to celebrate my 21st birthday together with me. Friends around me knew how excited I was when he booked his flight, there wasn't any turning back already.

I remember the day as I was walking up and down waiting for him at the arrivals. I even reached before the plane landed. After the plane landed, all I did was stood right in front of the arrivals gate/doors looking out for him. After 20 minutes of looking up and down for him, I finally saw him from far collecting his luggage. I remember the moment he popped out from the door, I just wanted to pounce on him and give him smooches and hugs. But I played it cool and hugged him tightly and kissed him.

Those days that he was around, I couldn't but jumping up and down and smiling. His smile was so charming and everytime I blush.!

That is the best 25days I have ever had in my life and I wish time would have just stopped there.

The best 25 days and the best birthday.

I miss the days you were trouble free/stress free. When you were always looking at me, flirting with me, sweet talk with me, hugging me, smiling and putting a smile on my face.

I have a wonderful boyfriend whom I guess people get jealous and wants him too.

I do not regret the past. Cz I know there's nothing u can do. All I can have is the memories you have given me.

I love you, I hope you know that.



- Posted from iPhone ♡ AilingC. ILY ♡

you

An old post i wrote and stil feel the same.
i would write a book about you/ for you if i have to prove how much you mean to me.
I would publish it and sell it to show you how strong my love for you is if i have to.

And all i ever ask if you to love me back the way you always did/do.


♥ It's been like a scrapbook. a love story base on true stories i'll say.
and here it is one.
Cheryl Cole and Will-i-am has a song putting out our words in the simplest way,
but still yet, there's so much more beyond that.

The smiles you put on my face because you told me you love me.
Or whenever you look me in the eye with your big bright eyes and give me a monkey face.
You will poke me, tease me, pick me, throw me.
And do anything regardless just to get my full attention.
And i will left with nothing but whining and laughing and screaming hysterically at you.

You love me cz i'm fragile, when i thought i was strong.
All you did was touch me and kept me safe and warm.
Being with you is all i wanna do,
Your sweet smile is all i ever needed,
Let us be together and make this last forever,
In my life is where i need you, right here next to me,
Your hugs and kisses, all of you. ♥♥

Mondays blue

It's been quite a day. 

Had a date with Eunice at parade and lunch at sushi. (i realize how little we both eat. LOL)

Bought hair stuff. 

Bought dog stuff. 

Brother ended up not wanting to be fetched!

Then was dragged to a charity work of making pineapple tarts and melting moments. 

Oh yay. 

Pictures are not mine. taken from the internet. 

But they look exactly the same!!!

i couldn't take any pictures because my hands were filled with pastry and dough and pineapple jam. 

Someone got scolded AND humiliated. LOL.

I had a bad night though. Don't wanna talk about upset things. Don't want him to bed mad about it. 

anyway....

Something i wanna blog about. 

Name. 

my name. 

Ailing. 

Is actually a word in the dictionary. 

Sad to say. 

ailing

adjective

1 his ailing mother: ill, sick, unwell, sickly, poorly, weak, indisposed, in poor/bad health, infirm, debilitated, diseased, delicate, valetudinarian, below par, bedridden; informal laid up, under the weather. ANTONYMS healthy.

2 the country's ailing economy: failing, in poor condition, weak, poor, deficient. ANTONYMS strong.

So, i am actually below par, poor weak. NOT strong. in bad health, trouble afflicted. 

Ok. yay. go me

._____________.

Everybody needs a change.

I'm now a really religious or superstitious person.
Although i go to church with family. But i do have my own beliefs and thinking.
Not gonna mention details in case my mom kills me.

ANYWAYyyyyyy,

Today, i'll be talking about horoscopes. MAINLY about them.

We all are familiar with the 12 zodiac signs we see around and we've always flip through the newspaper to see what they say about us.
Some are real some are not.
Some people don't believe in it. ex: my mom.

I do, but like i said, we all have our own beliefs.
Being a september 14th. the sixth sign of the zodiac, virgo was what i've always read, see, laugh about.
There's even a myth about it, saying in the greek myth, it was the virgin-goddess of justice.

One thing about most virgo's i meet is that, they are perfectionist. Another thing i know is that, they didn't say perfectionist in what. LOL
So don't say my room's a mess so how can i be perfectionist. I am perfectionist in my own way. =)
I've always seen positive side like being modest, shy, reliable, intelligent, analytical and etc etc.


http://www.astrology-insight.com/virgo.htm


I really liked it because it sounds feminine.
DON"T THINK OF IT THE WRONG WAY.

Now, in 2011, there's a new zodiac sign which appeared.
Since, everyday is taken, what to they have to do about it?
and how to sort it how??
They changed the zodiac dates.

Hence,
Capricorn January 20- to February 16
Aquarius February 16 to March 11
Pisces March 11 to April 18.
Aries April 18 to May 13
Taurus May 13 to June 21.
Gemini June 21 to July 20
Cancer July 20 to August 10
Leo August 10 to September 16
Virgo September 16 to October 30
Libra October 30 to November 23
Scorpio November 23 to November 29
Ophiuchus November 29 to December 17
Sagittarius December 17 to January 20






So, i became a Leo instead of a Virgo. !!!


Now, let's see what a Leo says/does. 


this is different.

A leo is generous and warm hearted. creative and enthusiastic. broad-minded and expansive. faithful and loving. bossy and interfering. etc etc

OMG!! THAT is so me. LOL.
not trying to be perasan or show off.
it should be. THAT SUITS ME MORE!!!

=)

Leo is a generous soul, the kind of person that would give you the shirt off of their back. Always has a smile, this warmhearted individual will be the first to boast your spirits when you are feeling down. Very charming with a flamboyant personality which tends to draw in those around them. They tend to be diligent and hardworking. Their desire to play hard as will as great emphasis placed on the pleasures of life qualifies them as excellent companions.



What i love the best about it?




The approach art and music with a raw unbridled enthusiasm that is unmatched by their peers. You will find many famous Leo people out there, simply because of their level of creativity.




http://www.astrology-insight.com/leo.htm

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Well, to the boyfriend. March 11. 

LOL. 

he's kinda stuck between being an Aquarius or a Pieces. 

He was a pure pieces back then. now he's half. 

I guess it's up to him to pick i guess. 

NOW!!, why all this change? who's the new person?

CAROL CHEONG my beloved sister has became part of the new zodiac sign call Ophiuchus...( i can't even pronounce it .__. )

But she doesn't believe big in it. 

but still..

Ophiuchus is the serpent holder is a seeker of peace and wisdom. attractor of good luck and jealousy. one who reaches for the star. etc. etc. 

I guess it's still new. So nothing much bout it. 

But, it's true that there is a new sign and the horoscope has yet changed. 

You can check out (here) - personality traits of Ophiuchus

or news on it. here

Make up

Girls love make up. 

well, most of us. 

me.. i do. =)

I mean, they are lovely, i don't create dramatic make up over and changes like THIS..

Now for THEM!!!

make up is really a need. LOL. 

i don't mean to sound bad. But u know how they say there's never ugly ones, just lazy ones. 

Hence, i'm gonna show u half of my make up. 

The make up i put on is quite heavy. ''For me lar''

with Fake eyelashes. 

Extended lines to make my eyes look longer. 

My contacts. ( they do have power, not just normal cosmetic ones )

and blusher to make my cheeks pinker and more dolly-ish. 

=DDDDDD

Hence, First picture, half face make up, half not.

I should have taken one side of my contacts down then u can see the difference, But i'll leave that to another post. 

You can tell the difference, One looks longer than the other. and darker. 

Of cz there's a slight weird difference. 

But not as dramatic as the taiwan girls. 

This is when i shut my eyes. 

You can now see the difference more. 

Now with both done. 

 and TADAH!!!!

i know i'm not that good. 

Still getting messy with it, But will learn soon enough.  =)

Make up as dramatic as this is not me. LOL

i don't do it. 

Well, i can't. 

 and i can't do this too. Like 

IT"S SUCH A HUGE DIFFERENCE. 

i mean, i don't mean to sound vain, but i think i look ok without make up. 

HEHEHEE. 

I like to leave it simple during the day. 

Let my skin breathe. 

ASIDES from sun screen. 

=( 

don't want to be tan. 

Wanna be fair and flawless. 

What's next? 

Learn how to get flawless skin. 

*envy* those korean and japanese girls. 

i meant, 

Flawless WITHOUT make up. 

Here's a video to share how dramatic they can be. Or how huge difference THEY can be.





And the POWER of make up.

Guys, you really have to see your girlfriend without make up in order to marry her.
NO OFFENCE.
but so you won't have a heart attack or thought someoneELSE came into ur house.

Ridiculous or not.

Me :" Mom, i'm going out later. Tmr lunch and dinner i won't be home because my friend's geting married."

Mom:" what friend? You're so young!''

Brother:" Do you think she doesn't have older friends? And she's already 22!!"

Mom:" oh. ok!''

Me: " Oh! and i'm going out later as well. Be back before 12."

Mom: "Just now you went out! Tomorrow morning you going out, tomorrow night you going out. Later you going out also. Why later must go out? Go out so much for what? So irresponsible and never do anything also!"

Me in my mind, different outing different occasion ma.

Mom: "shouldn't have let you out today! Nobody at home take care of the house! got gardener and nobody watch them."

Me in my mind, there's the maid. If don't trust the gardener stay home yourself lar!

Mom: "why are you not eating much? Eat more!''

Me getting annoyed : "enough!! i'm full already! why you gimme so much? You want me to overeat and die of bloating a?"

Mom :" i tell you ar! Don't take those slimming pills or diet pills a....."

Me : " i'm not"

Mom: " i know. But don't take those plan or whatever it is. Later you don't feel like eating ....

Me : " i'm not TAKING anything!"

Mom : "If you don't feel like eating natural it's fine. If it's because you're on the plan then you don't take the pills already.''

Me: " I am NOT ON IT!!!"

Mom: "Taking pills is not a solution to being skinny.....

Me: "How many times do i have to tell you that I AM NOT ON anything???"

Mom: " Yea lar! i know!......

Me: "Then why do you keep saying about being on the pill and telling me things i already know???''

Mom: "OMG! you are so stupid! so useless! so rude! so irresponsible! so.."

*her voice fading as she walks away..... Then she walks back.

Mom: "You are always like that? You only know how to go out and not know what to do at home. You only treat this house like a hotel! no responsible at all and is so hard to talk to you!!! Never treat me as a friend, treat stranger better than your own mother! ......

*voice than fades away and i can hear is mumble and nagging voice without knowing what the content is..



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hence, i am speechless and for the last time I AM NOT ON THE PLAN OR WTV SLIMMING PILLS!! so stop saying that i am or assuming that i am. and how am i stupid and useless. wtf.

2 in 1

On Tuesday. 11.01.11

Went to watch movie with hubby.

The tourist. 

Directed by Florian Henckel von Donnersmarck.

Starring, Johnny Deep and Angelina Jolie.

By Columbia Pictures. 

It's a remake of a French movie call 'Anthony Zimmer'. 

but we of course all love johnny deep and his acts. 

One thing i really loved about the movie asides from the plot, show, character, scene and others was the clothing design. 

Whatever Angelina Jolie was just made me want to have them. LOL

Love how it is so elegant and graceful and NOT revealing. 

 can't believe she's 35, given birth and still able to have a nice body. 

*drools* want. 

The movie overall was not too bad, 

but hubby and i were both disappointed that it ended so early. 

'the perfect trip, the perfect trap'. 

I don't think there could be any better tagline than that. 

My mind is blank. i can't even think of one. LOL

I bet if hubby is here he'd be able to gimme ten. 

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Hubby and i watched another movie last wednesday. 05.01.11

Tron Legacy. 

the first Tron was filmed in 1982. (if i'm not mistaken)

Again, i was a little disappointed with the movie. 

BUT!!, it is worth it. 

I love this bike.

Hubby will you get one? LOL

HAHAHHAA

You know how when you're watching a movie halfway, you always have a picture of how the ending will be in your mind?

Or when the ending just ended you'd be like 'That's it??

ohh. how i hate that moment. 

Like especially i see those movie theatre's worker opening the exit door.

We all know it's going to end. 

and i'd be like 'WHAT? so far?' 

I bet the only moment when i'm thinking 'shit. when is this gonna end?'

Is when i'm watching twilight or harry potter. 

CZ IT IS SO GOD DAMN LONGGGGGG. 

And i hate long movies cz we always need to pee or go to the toilet. 

and always end up missing some part. 

Hair *love*

TODAY, finally i went to the salon to straighten/cut my hair. 

hmmm. natural curly hair... bad stuff.

BUT NOW!! i can finally let my hair down free-ly without worrying my fringe is curling up!!!

OH YEA.. 

and i got back my china doll bangs. LOL

i hope it doesn't look weird this time. 

SO NOW, 

after all the trouble of

trying to tie it up neatly!

Or letting it down and be able to see visible curls at the side or pig tails coming out of my head. 

Or some weird wavy shape. 

OR have the trouble to tie it up in a neat bun DURING the day. 

Then it won't be special if i do it for the night also. 

Or tired of straightening it and get some stupid awkward waves/curls.

(excuse my face. i was really pissed)

Hence, now i can go out without worrying my hair will be ruined throughout the days/nights

and photoshots. 

ON TOP OF EVERYTHING that my hair has gone through.

I'm loving the products that i have. =)

Essential Damage Care Nauncy Air. 

repairs the 15cm ends of ur hair.

and it's REALLY GOOODDD

but my stuff are in perth. 

can't wait to get back to use it. 

THIS.

Lovely Hair moisturizer leave in conditioner mist.

IS ALSO IN PERTH!!

hence, have to wait till i go back to perth to use it. 

 BUT THISSSS..

is with me now. LOL. 

finally there's something at least i can use now. HAHAHA. 

I love the smellllll.

please get it. 

u'd love it. 

FINALLYY,

i can scream jump, do whatever i want, 

be messy. 

and not worry bout my hair. =D

Love letter

Dear 'you',,

It's late and I miss you terribly. I wish you could be here taking care of me but yet at the same time I don't want to trouble you.

I love you and you always manage to keep my smile on my face. Something no one has/could ever do. I hope this year would be a happy year.

You are the most important person in my heart. And you know me more than you know yourself. Spoiling me with love and care everyday. As time moves on to another year, we are soon stepping another stage of a relationship. As we bring ourselves together. We will overcome any problem together and enjoy the laughs together.

I love you, forever and always,


FROM 'me'


- Posted from iPhone ♡ AilingC. ILY ♡

i am sick and tired of wondering and waiting.
Refreshing and hoping.
But in the end it's nothing but a big disappointment.

i hate being the one giving in, and not knowing about the results.
人的性格我们是无法控制到的
我爱你多深你知道吗？
你有真心的想过我吗？
你以前很怕没了我，现在你一点也不理了。
可能如果没有了我，你可能会更开心，或者对你是无所谓。
我能说我想你，但是不能告诉你。
问你的时候，你就觉得不耐烦。
我真的很想知道，你到底心里想什么？
你到底爱我有多深？
你曾近说过的还算吗？
你曾近写过你多么的想我，爱我，要我。
现在呢？

A lesson to be learnt

I've read and found this before. but just wanted to share it again. 

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When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outsidethe door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.

My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.

Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.