The best thing is to love and be loved in return.

A really long post i wrote on the flight. I was bored and i was thinking :D

Different people have different ways and things of dealing with relationship. Requirements and conditions are different, there isn't never a right or wrong way, never a doubt or worthy or not. It's all about, doing something and never regretting it. If it's something you would regret and take it as a way to revenge against it. Don't do it. That's not right, and even if you insist, you have no right to say it's not fair when people do not stand at your side. 

To me, being loved in return is the most important thing. Girls call me stupid, guys tell me they'd love me to bits if i were their girlfriend. Guys are girls are different, physically and mentally, due to the chromosomes that separates us. There's a reason for being different. I can never tell you what to do if you don't agree with how i deal with my things. There's no point of me giving advice to someone who thinks i'm stupid. I would advice once, persuade twice, teach and point the third, and after that, i get third if you still do not agree with me. 

First thing's first, my boyfriend has never cheated on me. So whatever you read after this, do not doubt, if you do, stop reading. If you do and you think i'm stupid. Don't tell me. Accept the fact, everyone has their own ways of dealing things. Even when your best friend says ''ya! i think of that too". How sure are you she's saying it so you won't explain more and she'd have to listen more or do you really think she agrees with it?

I may not be perfect, but i am happy to be where i am. Being in a relationship isn't about how much time the guy spends with you, how much money he spends on you, where does he bring you, how many friends does he show you too, how much does he talk to you. If you love him, none of this matters. If you love him, the smallest thing he does, makes you smile. People tell me i deserve better, If you think i do, introduce to me a guy who you think i deserve better, and i'd look and judge after that. If you can't think of a person at all, don't tell me i deserve better. I know you care for me, i know you love me, that's why you think i deserve better. But by far so far now, i am having the best. 

To me, it isn't about him not seeing other girls, him not going out of other girls, not even looking at girls, not talking to girls, not texting girls, not bumping into an old friend and saying hi and chat for a while, not being able to talk to his ex, not being able to do anything related to any other girl asides you. I am not that selfish. If demanding and making him not do anything to another girl, or even look at them, that's controlling. That's doing small actions trying to keep him to yourself. isn't that selfish? Relationship is about trust. If you let something go, if it loves you, it will come back. This is something everyone should know. 

Insecureness will always be there, Afraid of losing will always be there. But it doesn't mean you have to control and make him not see other girls. If you're unhappy about that certain girl, tell him straight "baby, i'm afraid to lose you to her. i'm not controlling. Just telling you how i feel." Don't keep it to yourself and get angry and emotional for nothing without telling him why. Would you like it if he gets mad at you and not tell you why?

Guys will always be guys, which guy wouldn't take an opportunity, all guys would be curious, to know what it would be. So when there's a chance, they won't push it. But as long as the guy knows his limit. It's alright. I may be weird, you might hate me. But i would let my boyfriend do what he wants, because i know, it's all about curiosity, and in the end, he comes home to me. In the end, the one he loves is me. and that's all the matters. 

I use to be a girl that relies on him alot. And it drives me mad because i wanted to do everything with him. But to learn, he needs his freedom as well. and after 3 weeks being in two different countries, sparks came back and we missed each other more than ever. I love him not because he controls me. but because he knows me. He can make me mad and he can make me smile in less than a minute, no matter how mad how upset i am. He can make me smile. Friends have witness it. That is why i love him, because he can make me smile. he knows what i want. and he loves me back. with his heart. He may like and have interest in other girls, but that's not love from his heart or his eyes. 

So, how well do you know your men?

post number 500: Going Burgundy

So, i've been dark brown.. (most of the time)

Then i went blonde but stopped at a light brown because i didn't wanna bleach my hair. 

But the hair saloon STILL bleached it. 

I've been dark brown or light brown or cooper.. Well, there are all brown...

For about 5 years?? (ever since form 5)

SOOOOO, i've decided to go Burgundy..

This was the color i wanted.. But of course, again i didn't wanna bleach it, so going from brown to burgundy with a originaly dark hair. I either have to bleach it or do it in Two phase. 

So obviously, i didn't wanna bleach it, so i did phase 1 now and phase 2 in malaysia. 

The color is pretty dark in doors. Some may not tell it's dyed unless u look at it clearer.

So tadah!!! in the salon awaiting for the lady

When she applied, it looked purple and i was pretty excited about it! she didn't have a clip so she stick the brush and went to look for a clip. 

Then..

TADAHHHHHH

And with some sun light form the window. 

The back... Sorry bout th bad quality image my webcam has. ><

Then when i go under the sun.. it's pretty obvious. Well, what i wanted was the color under the sun was the color i wanted NOT under the sun. I think it's too confusing to explain. 

So here i go burgundy phase 1.. Apparently it'll be lighter after 2 or three washes.. we'll see how. :)

What do you think? does it suit me? I hope i don't look tan or darker in the color.

Time Flies : September

It's september already. Sad to say, luck hasn't been really good.
Maybe should go have a haircut or manicure. LOL

1st September:
 i smashed my nose against the cupboard. It bleed, bruised, swollen. HURT like a mathafarkercbkns@£(*&$%^%!!?>;
Fell backwards to the bed and literally blacked out for a moment. The first thing that hit me was ''OMG!! MY NOSE!!'' i thought it would fall off like Michael Jackson or end up being crooked. But it hurt sooooooooooooo bad, i could barely touched it.
Teared and almost getting into a panic attack. i finally stood up after 5 minutes in bed and went to the mirror, and grab tissues cz my nose was bleeding. and then the pain hit me sooo bad that i had a headache. (i have NEVER had a headache in my life... serious!)

2nd September:
I hit my tiny TWO toes at the edge of the bed.. (i think most of you know how it feel)

3rd September
i hit my forehead against the table.

4th September:
I hit my ankle against a tub/cylinder tube thing. and now when i walk, i feel like i slightly twisted my ankle.

5th September:
i slam my thigh against the table!


You know that feeling of pain till numbness and you can barely speak or scream and all u wannna do is just curl up in a ball? That's how i feel EVERYTIME i hit something.


I wanna be optimistic so my luck with turn. COME ON! of all months! better be great!



_____________________

So, last night i dreamt of Mooncake. i dreamt that everybody stole mooncakes and nobody would gimme a slices.
Fyi, i am not a mooncake fan. I only eat specific, the jelly ones, and one more i don't know what's it call.
So when i got up. the first thing i told the boyf was ''i want mooncake'' He was like what???

BUT, in the end, he bought for me. :D
Cost him freaking $7 bucks for ONE mooncake. HAHAHAHA. but oh well. i got my mooncake










Me and the boyf were talking about Food in Malaysia. and oh how we miss the place. (food)
can't wait to go back to eat.
Lucky him going back in a month. (or less)
and i've got 2 more months. shesh.

Changes and renovations

So, i know it's been a week. Pretty busy week i can say. but if you've been following me on twitter, you'd most probably know what i've been up to.

I've just renovated the layouts of my blog, with the help of a friend.  But, header still not satisfied. the current one up there is a temporary thing. Decided to keep the simple minimal, cz adsense were making my blog too messy.

Any suggestion on the header, please be welcome to comment on anything :)

My blogroll reading list is now at another page at the top there under "Readings". Link me and i'll link you back. :)
All the widgets have been moved DOWN at the bottom.
and i'd stick with three post on the home page.


here were the three similar ones. i'm still dissatisfied. Will work more on it next weekend after the Housing Estate Brochure is done.

Truth behind a relationship.

A friend once asked me why I stayed with my boyfriend through thick an thin. Regardless of the numbers of fights and arguments. Or the small minor attitudes we get ticked off easily. Nobody's perfect and who doesn't argue?





We give and expect nothing in return. An advice my dad has given me and friends have reminded me. Though some people say it'll be stupid to give and get nothing return, to love and be treated badly? But no, whether or not give or to love, it's your decision. Friends may come upon with suggestion and opinions. Some might influence you, but one thing for all, YOU have the right to make the decision. Your trends won't hate you for not listening/following their advice. If they are mad and not talking to you, get another friend.

Before you give/love, think before if it's worth it. When you are in doubts, there's no harm trying. You never try, you'd never know - my Bf teaches me.





I loved and stayed with him because I love him and I'm loved in return.

The best thing is to love and be loved in return -moulin rouge.

Yes, he might not be the kind of guy who shows his affection in public or to me all the time. But when it comes to critic moments and when I'm drop down in a depression hole. He'd not just lend me a hand to lift me up. But he's jump into the hole, and carry me back up.

He knows my likes and dislikes better than anyone else. Some can say it's naive cause he knows my weakness and will take advantage of me. But he's bot physically abusive. What matters the most is, he is able to make me smile whenever he wants. Just a snap away. Even when I'm in the most depression emotional moment where I felt like suicide is the only choice, he could just come over and make me laugh in 5 minutes.

Now you might be thinking if he could do it, why will he even let me step into that hole? Well, he's not my butler, not my maid, he's my boyfriend who has his friends, his time, his life, his thinking. I do expect him to be there 24/7 thinking on my behalf as well. In another way of saying it, I have my own in-dependancy.




If a guy can never make you smile when you're in the saddest, deepest moment. He's not the one.

My Bf is not perfect either, it gets on my nerve when he ignores me. Or not reply my question. Same goes as everyone who has that tiny bit that annoys each other. Stop and think why. Like for me, I am a very energetic noisy, jumpy, chatterbox who comments on every darn thing that I see and come across. And he's the kind of guy that doesn't comment and just keeps quiet. Unless it's family. Or gf. And only in some certain says or occasion. (mood). It's just two person coming along. So think just step back and stand in your partners shoe to know why.

There's never a not being able to work out. It's the communication, trust, hope, and faith.



----
Now, just a fun list :)

Ten things why he's the one.
1.) nobody knows him Better than me. My likes and dislikes
2.) he is very giving, let's me pick which movie to watch and what food to eat.
3.) he finishes my portion of the food which I can't finish or don't like even though he's bloated
4.) he accepts me for who I am.
5.) he allows me to play with my Teddy bears even though I'm 22 and he ends up hugging them to sleep :D ( not a secret anymore. Pls don't laugh at him :) )
6.) he let's me jump, pounce, ride, sleep, sit, stand, on him, carries me in arms even in short distance whenever I want even though he's busy or he'a tired after a long day.
7.) he let's me pick what to wear for him. When I insist. :D
8.) he finishes whatever I cook even-though it's not perfectly delicious. But he still says it's nice
9.) he buys me clothes (only certain that he likes on me) and sweets and candies and teddiez.
10.) he still loves me even though he fliers around for fun, but he's loyal and thinks of me only :)




So the truth behind relationship?? Be straightforward (communication)
Believe in him/her (trust)
Believe in the future that everything will go well (faith)
Love him/her with no regret and no complain (love)


And finally, smile.


Smile and the world will smile to you - me




- Posted from iPhone ♡ AilingC. ILY ♡

not happy me.

i am OBVIOUSLY not happy with blogger at this moment. Because the stupid server keeps having error.
Blogger, please do something about it.
Moving to Wordpress is hell and troublesome and it's mega complicated.

Saturday Freo

Saturday, 16.07.2011

We went to Fremantle because i miss seafood, the sun was out and baby boy had to take pictures of his assignments. 

So we had to take the bus. bit troublesome ey. It take us 2 buses and 1.5 hours to reach Fremantle. 

We missed a bus, then waited fo the next, hopped up on it. and then forgot the get down after 5 stops. LOL. we were too busy chatting away. 

So in the end, it took us 3 hours to reach Fremantle. 

Oh dear us. 

I love panaroma pictures. 

My unedited nature photograph

My all time model. 

and him learning to take photos. me learning to be his all time model. LOL. i faill BIG TIMEEE

So we had lunch at Kailis. Apparently it has the best fish and chips. 

While waiting for food. we started snapping picture..

COMPARE. and rate and comment. who is better. 

Top picture taken by the boy. 

Bottom picture taken by me. 

Which you think is nicer? =DDDD

__

so what we had was a seafood platter and a seafood cowder. 

I miss seafood cowder. It wasn't the best here. But it wasn't bad. 

It was the boy's first time having cowder. LOL! gonna bring him to a better one next time. 

Our seafood platter than comes with 2 fish, 4 squid ring, 4 prawn, 4 scallop, 1 chilli mussel cowl, and 1 mini salad

Food pictures all taken by me and unedited. =)

.

.

.

.

.

Then off we were to take pictures for the boys' assignment. 

Then i of course snap some. 

Train to no where by me. 

The long trees by me. 

I call them long trees instead of tall trees cz when i was a kid and when i saw these trees. i went 

'wow!! those trees are looooong!''

Dad goes ''no. it's tall''

i go ''But it's longgg!'

HAHA. so hence i called it the long trees. 

Then bf took pictures of me. cz i complained he never. HAHAHA

i wasn't really cam ready. 

can see my fat face. 

we saw a liquor store that was call the freo doctor. LOL!!!

i thought it was a clinic at first, 

then i saw beers and alcohol. 

Wish i had a car. then wouldn't have to wait for busses and could go to more places. 

Gotta start learning to pose as the boy will doing more photography work =)