KISS

♥ Back then. it was like this ♥

i love this picture. it's mua wall paper. =)))

♥ Right now is this.♥

But i still love you.

♥MUAHHHHHHH♥

xoxooxox.

sorry that i can't be around.

heee♥=DDD

♥ LOL. please don't kill me. ♥

♥ My boyfriend.

the one on the left.. [the one arm crossed showing his watch]

LOL. see . he does that so that the watch can be seen. LOL

I PAID HALF OF THAT!! hahahaa

cz he wouldn't let me pay all. .

adorable lil fella there. lol♥

Anyway, He... the most unexpected person that would do/happen.

finally updates his blog.

In the beginning it was an everyday post,

and then now it drags down to an every week post.

and soon. it's gonna be a month.

and it goes dead.

i'll doubt that.

LOL

it happens to him!!

god knows why. ♥♥

♥ The kawan baik of his [the one on the right with the brown hair]

was the one who told me he had a blog.

didn't believe him at first.

but i clicked it. [anxious kills]

and tadah. there it was 3 post already.

LOL

but now if you click into there ain't new post up yet. ♥

i know. the friend part was random.

but i needed a recent picture of him.

so those.

LOL.

i know he's gonna kill me and stop updating his blog cz he doesn't want people to know.

oh well.

Share the happiness, joys and suprises.

♥♥

i love u

xoxo

♥

p/s. his link is 'boyfriend'

crazy♥sunday

♥ ANZAC DAY ♥

on last sunday. with the spirit of it, woke up at 4am to go to Kings Park to see the event.

Never been to the place b4. should've check it out first.

it was freezing cold at 9 degrees. and King's Park was a small hill.

Facing the Swan river i was freezing.

but i never expected such a big crown. and there's more.

♥♥

♥ the marching parade at city esplanade. ♥

♥ now this is smth you don't see in m'sia. ♥

library♥tour♥fail

♥ So... Liying came in the evening and was SUPPOSE to go to the library when we only realize it's close._. ♥

what a great thing was it.

But then liying suggested to go to vic park to eat 'mamak'.

indonesian style.

LOL

♥ My COCONut Syrup DRINK ♥♥♥
♥ and the disk. nasi genduh. ♥
♥ ahh. so tasty. HAHAA. THANKU LIYING FOR DRIVING ME there. ♥♥

___

♥i cut my hair. ♥

♥ lol. as if. ♥

can♥can

♥ ahhh. the best deal. ♥

♥ First few pictures taken. ♥

♥ LOL.

love this..

oh.. how i miss u.

♥♥♥

click♥

♥ photography♥

Not mine.. but random camwhore and liying's assignments. =))

sorry i couln't help u with the tvc eh. =))

First picture taken. HAHAHAHAHAHA

Full credits to liying ze photographer.

♥ the day before when liying and jiamin came over. ♥

♥ love this. ♥

LOL!!!!

♥

now back to work.

ignore♥this♥post.

♥ Jealousy is something that takes away the trust on someone.

It comes easily but it doesn't go away easily.

It took me years and months and lots of experience and ups and down

to get over with it.

It is not a good feeling,

not something one would wanna have.

There say if there's jealousy, there's love,

there's hate and there's envy.

But it's just about the balance of what's more than the other.

20 years i've learn about life and i'm still learning about it,

All this time, i was finding who i am,

what i'm best in, what i love, wondering what i did in the past life to make this life so emotional confusing.

Or is it, equally the same to everyone?

What do you really want?

Think about it.. I try not to look at small things,

I admit, i can be really sarcastic and have a bad temper at certain time of the month,

and i wouldn't ask u to think about it because it's unfair.

but EVERYONE is asking me to stand in their shoes,

Think and consider about their side.

what about me?

Here i am trying so hard to make things work,

but yet there u are doing no shit.

Or am i just trying to hard?

Life is different for me,

it may not be for you.

But who is it to blame?

Yourself to let me go?

Me who decided to leave?

Tried to talk to you before i leave, but you just wouldn't.

Told you it's a big step ahead,

but maybe you just didn't realize and think things would work out well.

Maybe it will,

but not the way we'll do it like how we use to do.

I use to have big faith in you.

big trust big faith. that was all i need to stop myself from thinking.

Everyone was telling me i could do so much better,

i was stupid, i was crazy, i was blind.

but why?

because i was willing to give up and sacrifice for you.

Maybe you would ask,

what did i give up?

what did i sacrifice?

Maybe i just rather not say it, and just lie to you that i didn't sacrifice anything for u.

you know me.

if you do, you know my personality.

i will take anything just to make you feel better,

even it is to lie to you and make myself look like a bitch.

How many times have i tolerated?

To be left alone, hurt, angry will full of emotion,

then to be expected to vanish all those emotion and come smiling to you?

and who knows what's behind those smile?

No one. except for her. whom always knew there was something wrong and something disturbing me even though i was smiling and laughing.

Once, a person told me, i can't make everyone happy,

but i try my best too.

and in the end i hurt myself and make myself look like a bitch by making others happy and look good.

I'm tired, but i'm still working on it.

and i feel stupid just because of a small silly thing.

Ever asked yourself why you loved me?

Ever asked yourself why me?

Ever asked yourself why put up to all this shit?

Ever asked yourself how i feel?

Ever asked yourself what you REALLY feel?

and tell it out?

Not just because you're a guy, and you and your ego.

Ever wondered why i blogged it out instead of telling it to you?

Ever wondered if i needed time to adapted to the 'NEW' you that you say you are changing to?

Ever wondered that things are not the same anymore?

Maybe you wouldn't know,

because you've been living in the shelter of the home .

You've never stayed on campus,

on hostel.

You've never been to boarding school.

Trust is really important,

DON"T say you trust when you have jealousy or enviness.

DON"T say you trust just to wanna make me happy.

i hate liars.

and only say when you trust, when you stop thinking and doubting.

If u say you trust me, but you don't trust other guys.

THAT"S not trust.

if you really have trust, there's no doubting others.

Maybe i've changed because of the people around me.

And maybe you hate me or hate whatever people is around me.

But that's your choice,

that's your thought.

but it also proves how your mature and how much you trust me.

i could go on and on and on and say about the things i want.

but i rather not.

i♥u.

Question♥Mark

♥ Sometimes, we tend to overlook things

We look at small things and forget the big ones,

But look at the big ones and forget the small ones.

And we're so focus on one thing that we forget the other things we need to look.

Relationship, is not about, how many calls u get,

How many pictures you've taken,

Or how much text messages you've received and sent.

It's all about understanding one and each other.

but the hard thing is, everyone one of us are at different ages,

Different situations.

and everybody has different opinions and mind-thinking.

♥ Think about what you have, what's changed.

Don't hate someone because the situation or the relationship has changed.♥

I use to be so relying on one person,

The habit of having someone around there,

and i forgot what and how is it to explore around .

But now, things has changed.

But somehow, the more i explain,

the more you don't understand.

But all i can only do,

is wait till you understand.

♥♥

i ♥ pink

♥ Like the title ♥

My new FF layout theme.
♥♥ it's pink ♥♥
♥♥ i wanna get this macbook hardshell cover. ♥♥
it's solid color pink
♥♥♥♥ lovin it. ♥♥♥♥



♥♥ and it's super thin. ♥♥



♥♥ i love lipstick. ♥♥
Does kinda brings out a personality.
♥ 2 out of the 4 shades i have. ♥

♥ ahhh..
Just finished on presentation.
>.<

always pee-ed in my pants. LOL
why do we even need presentation?
i screwed up all my language,
i was so tongue tied and everything.
*ugh*

2 reports due tomrrow.
ahh. assignments. assignments. assignments.

i know. i'm sorry i haven't been updating much lately. >.<

hard work

♥ Study time. ♥

♥assignment time. ♥

♥ze selfish mua

♥ ahh. i wish i ha a polaroid. ♥

This is the Fuji Instax Mini 7.

♥♥♥♥♥♥

but don't think i'll be getting it soon.

it's been AGES since i held a camera [other than the one in my phone]

i left ze cancan with hubby.

Hope he protected it.

HAHAHA

hope he used it too.

don't leave it there to collect dust.

♥♥

me want.

♥♥

♥Curtin

♥ I know..

haven't been updating much. =))

i'm sorry.

was quite busy with assignments and work.♥

Here's a few pictures taken from Gloria's phtoshot session.

just to spice things up little.

♥♥

♥ Ivano, Hannah, Johnny, Me, Joey, Abdullah, Hong. ♥

♥ sitting down, gloria the photographer ♥

♥ another few random pictures. ♥

♥ i love the last picture. among all the 50 pictures she taken. ♥

ROFLMAO

Will be taking more to update.

Love ya baby. ♥

♥random

♥ Love ya baby. ♥

It' been quite a busy week [for the past few weeks]

with all the weekly reports and research to do.

die. *lies on the floor*

wonders how liying even manage to finish all the work.

*sigh*

things has been pretty up and down.

Don't even have much time to blog around. *ugh*

need to find something to blog.

Can't wait to go back in winter to see baby.

=))

i love u

muax.

teared

♥ What happen to us ?

i wish i were stronger

i wish i could erase the things i do not want to think about

i wish i could forget about unhappy things

But i missed you so much

the happy times we have

i don't want to think about the unhappiness between us.

They say some things are better left unsaid.

but i though we were able to talk about anything.

maybe i was wrong

maybe it's just me.

I'm sorry that i hurt you

or made you sad or disappointed you

I didn't mean to do anything harm

But what's done is done.

past tense.

Now it's the present and the future we are looking at.

What's next?

i do not know.

How well do you know me is one thing

How do you act around me is another thing.

You were the best

You were the worst

that i cannot judge.

I never know how you feel

i never wonder about that

till now..

♥♥

♥You slept with me at night

turned out the lights and kept me safe and sound all night

all girls wanted that

Having fun and eating together

You had to drive me everywhere

and when i couldn't sleep at night

scared things wouldn't turn out right

You would be there, not saying anything

but i know you want to care

just at times you were tongue tied

and you just expressed it differently

Wish you may and wish you might

holding you tight and never let it go

which you've always fussed about it♥

♥ what happened to us?

what's next?

I want to know what you think,

how you want things to work out

Because this is not about me.

it's about us.

Things goes two ways not one way. ♥