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Sunday, September 26, 2010

tears

♥ This previous week, it has been lots of tears, and feeling of emptiness ever since hubby left.

He must be really happy to go back home. =/


Last wednesday was Mooncake festival. i know i'm not a really religious person and it's not really a big deal. bla bla bla. But it's like one of the days where my grandma would give me money and buy me the lantern i want even though my mom wouldn't let me.
i cried that night, cz i didn't get a pink candle to light my lantern and walk around the dark. Guess it's time to grow out of it.

Speaking of it, i'm already 21. Doesn't feel any older physically or mentally at the slightest.
I wonder what would my grandma do if she was here. I bet she's gonna give me money and ask me to eat more and buy whichever candy i want or buy more nice pretty clothes.



♥ That one holding my sister's hand is my grandma. my mom's carrying me.



♥ Jelly mooncake.
my favourite.


♥ i miss those lantern
♥ The original mooncake.
I'm really specific with the inside flavors.
















It's been a week since hubyb blogged already. I have a feeling that hubby's gonna stop blogging. [i did told u guys before didn't i?]

But, sigh. i can assure u guys, don't have to put high hopes on his blog. He wouldn't blog anything also.

I rmb his first post. and his second post. and his third or fourth post. And now it's just none.. ish..... diSAppointed.

faster update la.. i myself also lazy tell u already. later is u update cz i ask u to, not because u want to. then what's the point right? =(.

It's been a week plus since hubby left. I MISS HIM LAR!!!!!

i wish i'm home now. *sigh* can't take the pain without him being around.
donkey hubby.
bluek don't forget pick me up at the airport in november.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

♥ love you baby ♥


♥ I know it's been a while since i've blogged. ♥ Why? As everyone knows. =D Hubby came to australia. LOVE YA!!!
I had a great time and i couldn't be ever loved. and After you return back, i just realize how much we are to each other, How much u mean to me, how i really want you

Hubby came all the way here to spend my 21st birthday with me. which was something NOBODY would ever do. Hubby would drive 2 hours up from KL to IPOH just to fetch me. Or just to eat dinner with me. I remember the first time i met hubby, charming yet killing. I remember you came to Sunway Tambun to spend time with me because i asked u too. You came back from KL just to fetch me from work. You picked me up at 9am in the morning cz i couldn't go back. You fetched me when i was KL and made sure i was ok. The first present you bought me. The first time you told me you love me. The first trip you brought me to. It's all running in my head. Though it isn't any big, but in the past 2 years and 9 months, it has meant alot to me.

For my first birthday, you bought me an ipod nano, wrapped it up and let stitches hugged it, and wait till the last minute of my birthday to give it to me. And i was thrilled, nobody has ever bought me an ipod before. Something i've always wanted. And you bought it for me. [i know it's not cheap, that's why. thank u].
=DDDD
For my second birthday, i kinda screwed it up. and i'm sorry. You bought me a lomography camera. [i still use it] Just that carol took it and it's now with ivan and i can't have it. ISH!!!!! and i'm really sorry i made a fuss and fucked it up last year.
For this year, my third birthday, you bought me a polaroid [wait, u said it wasn't my birthday present. ] LOL. but you gave me a ring. more than ANYTHING i could ever imagine. You told me things and asked me a question nobody would ever ask me.

And hereby i say, i don't care how long or how short it is. i don't care when or if anyone objects us. It is you i love, and it is you want to spend my life with. and YES, i love you forever, will be with you forever. Through thick through thin, through ups and downs. And now it has brought us up into a higher level. I just wish i could hug you and lie on your hand, cuddle you to sleep. Close my eyes, Kiss you goodnight and fall to sleep.

♥ lovesick

Monday, September 20, 2010

one year anniversary

♥ It's been a year, since i've moved to this new blogged. and oh it has brought me so many memories and kept so many of my thoughts and pictures and journals.

I love you my pink pink blog.


Saturday, September 18, 2010





In 24 hours time, I will no longer be in ur arms again :(
Here I lie in bed and you on my desk table. I just feel like crying, cz it will be months till I see you again. Sigh. I wish u could stay. At times I feel really selfish cz I only think of what I want. But I can't help be spoiled by you and I love it when you spoil me. So please do spoil me more :D

Baby I love you, though I don't throw big parties and have cool Dj mixing songs or hot girls dancing and lots of entertainment. I don't dress up the whole day and wear a crown on my head for my birthday. I still go to class like any ordinary day and watch movie like we do, the only difference is, I get a more expensive presents from you and extra presents from friends and
Family. Asides from the 165 wishes on fb, it doesn't make any difference. I remember back then in high school, everyone would get presents and cards. And I always hated my day. But as the years pass, I grew over it and never thought anyone would fuss over it. Till you came, it wasn't like you threw a huge surprise party like I did for carol's. It felt like any ordinary day. But with you around, everyday seems like it's my birthday, everyday seems like it's Christmas, every date seems like the first dare and every moment feels like I'm in dreamland.

It feels like Christmas is gonna be over and no more presents for me'. No more you to give me' hugs and kisses for being a good girl. No more you to praise me' and appreciate me. No more you to tell me I'm fat or I'm pretty. No more you to let me climb on. I hate coming back home to unlock the door myself to find the bed empty. To find my teddies left alone waiting for me. Hate that I'm full and nobody there to finish up my portion. Hate that there's the new Disney movie and nobody is there to watch with me.
I wish the times of you with me' will pass by slower and the times without you will pass by faster :(

I'm so unexpected that you actually bought me a ring. Thinking n watching back the video. Just makes me wanna hug u and smooch you everywhere. You use to say what for. You weren't the kind that would get 'couple ring' or matching t-shirt. But when you got the LOVE shirt I was surprised and now the ring has made me' dumb-founded. I love you baby. And I don't know how much I need to say for you to see it. Muax. I love you.

Somewhere, someone is thinking of your smile <3

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Location:Fermoy Close,Waterford,Australia

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Me

Jealousy use to be something that stays behind me. But somehow, now is creeping all over me. Maybe the fact that back then I was there, but now I'm not and self-caution is everywhere me.

Sometimes I do wonder, what do I deserve to get u?

At times I wanna be a selfish bitchy girlfriend. But whenever I see you, I just forget about everything. U make me problems go away. One kiss of yours, makes me smile. One hug of yours, make me feel so much better. One touch of yours, makes everything better. And one hand of yours, makes everything go away.

Sometimes I wish I was rich, rich in heart I can but rich in cash I can't (yet). But still then, I would do anything and get anything for you. Whatever that you want.


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Saturday, September 11, 2010

Fucking no mood


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Tuesday, September 7, 2010

updates

♥ It's been a week since i've blogged.
Sorry guys and gals, i didn't really have the time for the past week. As i was in Melbourne. for the week and i was rushing my assignments when i came back and i'm finally done with the important once. =]]

It's been a week plus since hubby is here. AHHH!!! if u ask me, it is like a dream come true. Oh! if u're telling me this is a dream, please don't wake me up. But i do know that reality is always better, i can't wait for wednesday night till i can be with hubby again. *drrooolls* i love you baby.
Hubby bought me the polaroid camera. HAHA. i always wanted to scream unpacking the present, LITERALLY!!!! now i feel bad cz i didn't get hubby anything for his birthday.

oh wait. i did get him the gucci wallet. LOL. silly me.
xoxo
i love u baby. ♥ There are more pictures in fb. LY, i'm sorry eh, i can't upload so many here at once. HEHEHEE. slowly like and comment whenever you can. =]

i know i do look fugly in pictures. but oh well, nobody's perfect. =]








Wednesday, September 1, 2010

=(

♥ Sometimes i wonder, wouldn't it be easier if u had someone else as your girlfriend.
i don't know what has come over me anymore.
I can't be as sampat as what you want, i can't be as funny as what u want. i can't be the girl dream that you dream of.
I'm not fashionable and i don't like nice wearing ANYTHING. i'm not photogenic and as skinny as others.
I'm not smart and not knowledgable.
i can't take jokes and i'm not like you that tells things straight away.

♥ I'm stupid, i'm silly, and i'm clumsy.
I'm sensitive, i'm ugly, and i'm stubby,
I'm fat, i'm unjokeable and i'm lazy.
i'm not everything you dream of, but why'd you love me?

Sometimes i feel that you deserve so much better