Me

Being in a place where I've always wanted to be sure is a great achieve. But then, to go for your dreams you'll have to sacrfice something. The ones you love, the ones you desire. But will I be too selfish to act this way?

Afraid to said to be rebelious, which is one of the obstacles. I was told, do what we love for ourselves, but not for others. But what's the point? At times, I'm really tired, to hold on to things, but at times, I love what we have.

I'm confused, I'm sick and I'm unhappy, because of the fact tat I moved on. Life is a long way more, and as days pass, I know more about myself. But what is it that I really want?

I don't want to make decisions, but I can't help thinking about what will happen tomorrow, what will happen in the future.
I might have taken the wrong step, I should have done what I wanted.

But if back then I did what I wanted, I wouldn't have met you. You made such a difference in my life, you made me know more about life. You made me love you.

I can't wait to see you, but I hope it was the best decision I made. The memories you gave me, taught me things no one would. No matter what happens, I will never regret the days I had spent with you.

I wish you have a happy day, today, tomorrow, next week, next month, and every single day in the future.

I loved and love you.

Love

I miss you

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I love my baby mac, who was with my for two years, never once broke down, nor had any virus, or slowed me down,
and was there for me fast.
I'm sorry if I did smth wrong I don't know why u broke down and not working anymore.
I feel so sad, all the memories I have within u, u taken away with u.
I know dad say I could get a new one, but still, I feel so bad and attached to you..
Why isn't she the one feeling bad??
The one making me feel bad instead, bitch...

Sigh. Everyone keeps saying both my parents are understanding,
but sigh, I feel so weirs, this thing inside me...
It's like it's my fault, and I could have done so much more better :((

I wish u were here, I wish I could snuggle with u and hug u,
cz it's the only place where I feel things would seem so much more better be ause u are there

what would I say? I miss your smell, your hug, the times where I can ma ja u and be myself, to lean on you and hug u,
force myself to give you pecks of kisses and u try to push me away.
I miss those days already, I miss the night where I'll fall asleep knowing I won't have nightmares.
And so many more...

I'm not homesick, I'm lovesick

It's so weird and hard, this feeling inside, I just don't know.. :(
I wish you were here, someone who would keep my mind straight up.
I'm so sorry you have to wait, this big changes that I've done..
I'm sorry to those i've disappointed,
I really don't know..
Why am I so easily being pushed over? So easily to be said and make myself feel bad when I shouldn't have at all...

I'm here in my room just feeling the confusion, don't know how to explain how I feel,
but I know that I have to be aware of what's around,
at least I know my limits and what I'm doing.

I thought things would be a good start, but some things just follow you along
Row was right bout me, but somehow, I still feel bad, not knowing sure whY I should do.
But one thing I can say is, things will be better tomorrow.

Nights

*******

baby, I don't think I'll need to say it. U might just get bored

♥ sigh. ♥

it's been a week here. there's been ups and down.

i miss u so much.

been trying so hard not to show it, assuming that i didn't want to bother you about it,

but right now,

i feel so lost.

Every night i'll be looking up to the stars, wishing when will i have to chance, to actually lie down and fall asleep with u looking at stars together [such weird stuff i have in my mind right?]

People has been asking me, what i wanna do after i graduate in two years,

i don't know.

Two years,

two years ago i met you,

what will happen two years later?

All of the sudden, i feel so lost

i was ok. i never cried. i was fine.

UNTIL YOU CALLED and told me you love me and miss me.

These tears just wouldn't stop.

and now u left me crying in my room.

damn u.. T__T

i miss u so much..

♥♥

shades

♥ I'm a camwhore bitch. ♥

♥♥

Love my new shades.

pink and white.

they were on sale.

hehez.

i'm so desperate for shadessss..

the sun is just too glaring.

♥ i've got really ugly messy hair.

HAHAHA

beach♥

♥ Today, went to the beach. ;DDD♥

with Row, Brian, Cam, Anu, Hadrian, Sajal.

♥ you just will LOVEEE the beach man..

i went for tanning session which failed. lolz.

The sun was therer but the wind was big.. it almost blew my dress of my hand. lolz
♥ Cam and Row half burried in. ♥
♥ REVENGE BACK!!!! lolz.. brian kena. ♥
♥ ahh. time to leave. ♥
♥ had a fun day there. ♥

water was salty. eww. lolz

but it's BLUE!!! and the wave were like so huge.. never been to such a huge wave or strong current. not even in any swimming pool i cam across in my 20 years of life. lolz

♥ ♥

♥ Walking to uni is something i have NEVER ever walked so far in my life before. lolz.

but at least it's different. i'm tired. but not exhausted or all sweaty. ♥♥

♥ maybe it's something i have to start new and get more knowledge. ♥♥

♥ Time tables are finally done. ♥

Wed: Jewellery Design 2pm-4pm

Thurs: Creative advertising Studio 10am-1pm

Fri: Creative Advertising Copywriting & Artworkshop 12pm-3pm

Creative Advertising Design Theory 3pm-6pm

so yea. that's my time table.

♥♥♥♥

and YES! i'm taking jewellery design as my elective this semester. =)))

♥ DAMN! can't upload certain pictures. T_T.

well, anyway, still getting use with some certain things. finally got my internet done. THOUGH it's not much. T__T. why can't aussie have unlimited internet usage?

*sigh*

anyway, liying is only coming back monday.. one whole week. i'm getting lost here my dear. lolz. i need u.

HAHAHAHAA

Today finally gotten my time-tables done. =) classes are on wed afternoon, thurs morning and friday WHOLE afternoon from 12 to 6. T__T

and the rest of the days are off. =DDD

Campus is huge and i'm getting lost. REALLY, literally lost. and hubby wouldn't survive the life here..

HAHHAHAA.

i'm serious. no joke. =DDDD

Shanelle: a box of blueberries cost $5.99. meaning it's RM18. HAHAHAHAA..wait till i'm richer first. lolz

finally,

HUBBY CALLED TODAY!!!

omgomgomgomgomg!!

i was like literally jumping up and down my bed..

awww. i miss u so much. T_T. *tear*

thank u for calling, even though it cut off all of the sudden,

have you been partying all week? =) u bettter!! cz you're partying on behalf of me also.

HAHAHAHAHAA

my shades. T_T can u pass them to liying so she can bring them to me?

pleassseeeee =DDDDD

i love u.

and i love u too liying. can't wait to see u campus is too big. i need ur help. =))

I’ve finally gotten into my room, unpacked half of my stuff.. left my clothes in the luggage bag because i do not have hangers. lolz.

my hands full of blister because i had to carry ALL MY STUFF up second floor. O____O

i was gonna die even just carrying my hand carry which was like 10kg. Even during in the plane i needed help from this guai lou fella to help me. lolz. i wasn’t even tall enough what more to put that weight up.

was at the gate waiting to board the plane that delayed for an hour!!!! and as usual snuggles was at my lap and this kid which was staring at snuggles for a long time came and pull snuggles ears. ;)) so cute. hahaha. then he just sat there and pat snuggles like a real puppy. heeee =DDDD

anyway, couldn’t sleep well at the plane cz this girl next to me. *sigh* and i ended up getting gastric.

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Day 2.

Haven’t been eating anything well. the one and only proper meal was when Jacent brought me out in city eating japanese food, chicken katsu cost me $5.30. Food at campus are so expensive. i wanna die. =/. i feel so poor now. on a tight budget. Not a life everyone can do it. I’m already like half dead without a phone and internet!!!! ._.

and all these data and mega.. why can’t they be unlimited just like singapore then it’ll be fast. My legs hurt, my ankle hurts, my shoulder hurts and my arm hurts. From walking too much [bet i twisted it somewhere. And from carrying all that luggage just killed me. *sigh*. i wish baby was here to give me a goooooOOOOood massage. =DDD

i love u baby. and i miss u.

♥ Sooo, mom bought a new laptop for matthew. lolz. but he isn't officially holding it yet. lalala.

anyway,
it's already saturday night.
time is passing by so fast and i'm leaving tomorrow.

*sigh*
today, i feel really bad.
you know at times that you are so soft hearted that whenever someone says something you just felt like you've just been a spoilt brat and you could have done so many other things in other wayS?
*sigh* i should've said no.
greedy selfish me.


that's how i'm feeling right now.
That's how i felt whenever my dad gave me one of 'his-lecture', i feel that. ''hey, it's not even my right.so why did i?

sigh.. i really hate this feeling. really.

but baby.. i love u

♥ seriously.

you're gonna make me scream out of my head. ♥♥

♥

♥ New hair.♥

lolz. i know. i do have picture at the previous post..

But here is a proper picture.

for beloved thong su-xian to see how my hair is now.

lolz.

;)))

♥♥♥

i miss u.

my♥hair

♥ Ok.. so my hair was dead.. BUT LONG..

but frizzy and brittle...

T_____T

can you imagine your boyfriend running through your hard corse dead hair that feels like bushes and torns?

T___T

i wish i had nice bouncy shiny soft hair..

So.. i went to the saloon. ♥

♥ First i went to dye my hair. thinking a better color would make it better. ♥

Well.. i liked the color...[finally i died it]

BUT!!!! the bottom half of the head wasn't dye-ed properly..

♥ So, went back to the saloon AGAIN and re-did my hair for free..

and. had a hair cut because the hair-stylist [jay] couldn't stand how frizzy and brittle it was.

So thus.

CHOP. my hair was being cut.

now i'm so not used to it.

But i'm thinking of getting a healthy hair and GROW LONG IT.

and when i come back.

TADAH.. it'll be long again. lol

wanted to create a new style.

but didn't want to take the risk just in case

THE boyfriend doesn't like it. HAHAHAHAHAHA

;)))

i love u.

♥♥

♥ Cam whore sessions with hubby ♥

♥ Time is passing by so fast, it's already monday. ♥

AND... i finally gotten my COE..

omg. less than a week then i'm leaving.

i miss you baby.

and i seriously. DO NOT KNOW what to get for you for valentines.

*sigh*.

i know u want that shirt. but i doubt it but pray for it.

still. i want something else special. *sigh*.

anyway,

i'm gonna miss you so badly.

Here you are sleeping but yet i'm just. here. blogging.

god knows what is going to happen next.

and i hope that hope, strength, faith will keep us strong.

♥♥

i love you, and i know it doesn't mean anything be'cz everyday you've been saying it.

you've been TEASING me so much lately. T_T

i wonder why.

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♥ Reviews again. ;DDD ♥

These are some stuff i'm using. and also anyone interested i'm selling. LOLZ.

*since when have i been a seller? ♥

♥ Polishing Peel. ♥

It's like a face scrub and whitening effect too. ;)

what i love about it is that when you scrub it, it's not jojo beans, so you don't feel like stones scrubing.

it's lotion form, and when you finish scrubing, all the dead skin is visible and BLACK COLOR!!

hahaha

this proves how dirty how face is. lolz.

and i love it. ;))))

♥ Mud Mask. ♥

Love it. because it has firming inside it. ;)))

love love love. hehez. There's a small breathe of what the product is about.

and best of all.

it doesn't stink. ;)

♥ And finally the hair mask. ♥

the one... i repeat. THE ONE.. i love the most.

smells nice. don't know how to describe the smell. HAHAHA

and it's soft.

using it twice a week..

and never fail to have a good hair day.

;))))

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shoefreak♥me

♥ i am a SHOEFREAK!!!!. ♥

i love shoesss..

especially heels.

i swear to god.. i'm gonna earn big bucks.

HAHAHAHAHA

and have my own show collection and my watch collection plus my camera collection.

oh my. i sound liek a spoilt brat now lolz.

♥♥♥

♥dedicate

♥ Dedicated to Muriel. ♥

Sorry it took me some time. ;)))

But these are the three which are black from the previous post i posted..

Though it's not really very blingy. hahaa. cz it's the guy version.

But they do have other designs and kinds of you want it in black.;)))

♥ Sorry it's very limited and random. ♥

♥another.random.

♥ MOMMY wouldn't buy me the tiger. ;(((((

♥ i picked three.. .. but mommy wouldn't buy it...

there is
♥eyor♥
♥winnie the pooh♥
♥ and TIGER!!!. but mommy wouldn't get me the baby tiger. ;;((( ♥

...

For the WHOLE WEEK. i've been accompanying someone who STILL goes around saying that I DON"T spend time with her.

._.

sigh. don't wanna talk about that.

here random pictures..

♥♥ i know they BOTH look slight different.. hahahaa.

i'm being SUPERB random.

♥ mom's friend doggy i wanted to bring home. lolz. ♥

♥

♥ My babies. ;DD ♥

missing the biggest one.

♥♥

♥ Today, i've been packing. ♥

♥ lolz. now my luggage is almost full and i haven't FINISH PACKING. T____T.♥

i'm so scared that i don't have enough space.

ugh. ONE BAG????

which ain't that big too..