Hubby is here
<3 love love


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you. ♥

♥ I'm at Melbourne now. ♥ Hubby fast asleep here next to me. and i just decided to open my blog and noticed a post form him which i didn't see it at all.

i teared when i read it, and although hubby is just a metre away from me. i feel like telling him sorry, that i love him and i'm sorry for hurting him and putting him into all the trouble.

But i don't regret any decisions i've made. I treasure the memories in my heart. my love. you. ♥♥♥

I finally realized how selfish i was. Making a decision that wasn't what hubby wanted, but it was what i wanted. Nevertheless have i thought about the consequences that hubby would be facing if he followed my decision. I feel so bad, that i didn't push things enough. Life here in Melbourne would be so much better for hubby. Or maybe life in singapore or malaysia would be easier? and i don't know. I really wanna ask hubby, what does he really want. But i know, hubby won't tell me the truth. Because hubby knows i will make my decisions according to what he makes. but i can't help it. =(

If u chose perth, i'll stay till you graduate, If you come to Melbourne, I'll come over and stay till you graduate, If you decide to be in malaysia or singapore, i will be with you. Wherever you are, my heart is where it belongs.

I know whatever i say right now is nothing but useless words that goes in the right ear and comes out from the left ear without analysing it and everything. You might think over it over and over again, not once, or twice about why i did it, why so, what happened to me. And as i sit here down, i think about it, nomatter what i say and how much i say, doubts and questions and insecureness will still be in you, and it's all my fault. Nomatter how much i say sorry, it's no point. Afraid of being left out, afraid of being not wanted, i did stupid things and said worst things. I didn't know what came over me, i was like possessed and a nightmare. i feel like my guts have been tied up tangly every time i think about it. and now, paranoid and insecureness is all my fault.

♥ I'm so happy that u came. Don't know how to explain this feeling inside me. The butterflies in my stomach. ♥

i don't ask for a million dollars, i don't ask for nice flowers, i don't ask for anything, all i'm asking, is you.

I love you hubby, Here i'm telling you, Don't have to worry about your decisions, if you don't want to be in perth, you wanna be in Melbourne, or you wanna bee in singapore. or wherever you want. i will Try my best and MAKE SURE you get what you want, even if it takes me to go up to them personally and ask. and i will be with you, re-unite with you.♥ you, my present, my future.

I love you

Tmr night, I won't be alone. I would be in ur arms again. I would be kissing you and cuddling in with you. I'll be sleeping and knowing you will alwYs hug me. Knowing I will always be nicely cuddly in my pink blanket with u. In 24 more hours, I would be kissing you again. The feeling of overwhelming nervous overcomes me. Like the first time I met you or when we were on our first date.
Will I be too fat? Or ugly? Will u notice it? Will u be happy? And the nervousness just keeps on. This is another step for us baby, and I cannot tell you how excited I am. Never in my life anyone done anything for me like that, never anyone would do that to see me.
I remember the first week I met you, you actually had to go back KL to get your semester results from sunway, but you made it a one way trip down so you could pick me' up after work. And I could remember you would rush all the way back from kl to see me. And now here you are, flying 37thousand feet above see level and 4167km here to spend your holiday and time with me. And be my best birthday present. :)

I love you baby, and I want you to know you mean everything to me'. Xoxo
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Miss you

When you are in love, you can't fall asleep because reality is better than dreams <3
As I lay here in my bed, getting ready to go to bed. Here I am thinking of u. So excited to see you again. I love you. And i can't help loving you. I can't help putting my arms around you. I've missed you. Terribly and miserably. Day and night I think of you, lovesick I am and can't wait for the future to come.

Every morning I will wake up and refresh your blog page, and when there isn't any updates I'll go back to bed. But when there is I'll read. I always love reading. Cz u never tell me those. And I can never refresh back and read again. Why I wrote diaries and blog post because I'm afraid one day I'll forget things and lose my memories. Or one day I'll die *choy* and at least part of me still remains. Idk why. I use to be strong and wasn't afraid to die. But now I'm afraid to die, I'm scared because I know Hubby will be sad. [mayb I shud be cutting down C.S.I] hahahaha.

But I know one thing is that, I wanna appreciate every single moment with Hubby. I cannot believe Hubby is REALLY coming!! My 21st birthday. Although I dun hv a luxurious party or wtv it is. I have what I need here. You. I love you.

I miss those days where we pop in the car and grab smth to eat. I miss the days where we would hog up the living room n I would make it a mess with my assignments everywhere. Miss the times where we would cuddle together on the sofa with teddies and just laughing at each other. Miss the times u'll be holding the control and flipping channels don't know what to watch but wouldn't let me' watch C.S.I. . Miss the Tuesday nights where u would glue ur ass un front of the TV at 10.10pm to watch WWF. Miss the times where you would fall asleep on the bed and 'pretend' to be thinking. Hahaha. Miss the times whenever we buy mcD you would insist and break my resistants to McNuggets. Miss the times where the both of us would gossip bout other ppl worst than the gossip girls. Miss the times where you would take my teddies as punishment to me'. Miss the times when you buy ice-cream to cheer me up. Miss the time you saw nice clothes and buy for me after I try them on.

And there are so many more times and moments which I miss :( and I miss you, your cuddles, body to hug, hand to hold, chest to sleep, lips to kiss, hair to stroke and every single bits of you.

Muax. I love you baby. Xoxo


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Snorlex

Baby snorlex. I miss you. <3

Yesterday Hubby went for charity. Hmmmm. How come he nvr do when I'm there. But anyway.idk why I very happy when I saw Hubby use snorlex. Hahahaha. Cz last time Hubby damn scared and paiseh ppl know.

I love u.


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6 more days

♥ SIX MORE DAYS!!!!! ♥

that is what's gonna take for us being TOGETHER AGAIN.

omg!! can't wait.

hugs. kisses. XXX

U being in my life again.

oh. how i love u.. hubby see??? only u can make me feel this way.

I wonder what u will wear.

♥Casual with shorts and shirt? ♥

hubby, no slipper a.. cannot wear slipper. k? muax.

♥ Or a little better? ♥

Jeans and a t-shirt.

♥ I have a feeling u will bring this short.. ♥ =DD

Bring it.. HAHAHAA

♥ Or will u have ur glasses on? or contacts? ♥

Baby, if u feel comfortable with glasses, then wear glasses k?

u very leng zhai also ga.. different look ma.. but i still can recognize u. =)

it'll be cold when u reach..

Approximately 9 to 13 degrees. but i will bring ur sweater along.

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♥ Or maybe u might wear like that... I HAVEN"T SEEN U WEAR LIKE THIS!!!! ♥

♥ Or maybe ur strip shirt. =D ♥

♥ What about ur low V shirts. ♥

HEHEHEHE.

xoxoxoxxo

♥ ahhhh. or maybe u wouldn't wanna hassle and wear just a plain shirt. ♥

♥ or u decide to go a little smart casual.. ♥

Love this. ♥ =DDD

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ I really wonder what u would wear.. HEHEHEE. I LOVE U!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

No matter what u wear, how u look, i love u, and u're still the most leng zhai guy in the world, and nobody can replace u.

Within you i lose myself, Without you, i find myself wanting to become lost again..

so faster come. =)

miss you

♥ My hubby, the most loving person in the world. ♥

See how he's giving his love to the new puppy, Hazel.

Hubby loves me so much that he let me pick the name. Love is so hard to explain.

But he makes me feel safe and it's ok to open my heart and let him in. and i know he'll protect it.

I MISS YOUU. wanna cry. =(

♥ Thus, hubby know i cannot have Hazelnut, so hubby bought Walnut. ♥

=DDDDDD heeeeee. i love u.. although both are cute and adorable.

i love you,

Hubby know i love teddies and he will always wanna buy for me.

I saw another one that needs our love!!!!

but i have a feeling hubby won't buy this one.

♥ But all said. i love hubby. ♥

i'm the luckiest girl ever. and NOBODY can take him away, not even god.

Take him away, means taking my life and soul away.

You♥

♥ Suddenly, i miss you loads, i begin the read ur blog from the beginning where u started to blog about me, and tears begin to roll down, emptiness begin to creep up to me, and a smile begin to spread on my face. ♥

it's only a week away, and i can hardly wait for it to come, another step for our relationship, you coming here. A reunion of this LDR.

i want to steal your pillow, hog up the bed and lie RIGHT in the middle,

ANd u will take care of me and make sure i'm always laughing and giggling.

spoiling me with all the love and smiles of yours.

Your charming smiles and irresistible lips.

Always makes me feel i have the whole world in my hand because u make me feel safe and feel so secure,

You make me feel i can have all the love i want.

A guy can have money, can be smart, can be rich, can be obedient,

but if he can't give me the love and the secure that words can't even describe it,

what's the point?

I look at my grandma and grandpa and see hubby resembling grandpa in some way, ♥

The nights he would wait outside the toilet whenever my grandma showered, to make sure when she came out, she will be fine and will always sit out there not moving,

The times he'll walk silently behind or next to her watching for her, make sure she crosses the road safely, made sure we were always there for her.

Whenever we wanted to hug him and hold his hands, he will push it away and ask us to take care of grandma.

The mornings where me and my mom would bring them out for breakfast and he will always ask what she wants to eat, and would always scold me for being greedy and let my grandma pick what she wants to eat. And although he keeps quiet, he always looks up when he's eating making sure grandma has her food, she's happy and has what she wants.

The times where he will let her decide everything, what to eat, where to go, what to wear.

The moments he tells her she's pretty and she's the best.

The periods of tense moments when she's fussing around over small matter, he will argue for a while, and then finally grandpa will say ''ok la, honey. you're right, i'm sorry. u're the best. you're always right''. Although it sounds sarcastic, but he always say sorry to grandma and let her have the last word. He would be pissed, but he keeps it inside him and kept quiet.

When grandma was in the hospital, he was always there, and insisted to stay there. worried, but not saying anything.

And now i think about it, it was all there. and the love that grandpa gave grandma, the life grandpa gave grandma, the fortune and luck grandpa gave grandma, it's the nothing money can replace, it's not anyone that could give. it's the worlds best gift, and most precious thing. the TRUE love there.

i've found mine, and i know, i'm the luckiest girl ever, and i feel the luck and happiness grandma has. and i suddenly miss her.

♥Just 7 more days and hubby would be here, how lucky am i? i couldn't have ask for anything more.

i love you.♥

♥ What made/make me pretty ♥

♥ So randomly, i got my filters for my lenses and just decided to take random shots. ♥

And as lame as usual. Here are my beloved daily needs to keep me skin as soft as baby

skin as white as snow,

hair as healthy as baby,

lips as pink as barbie,

eyes as big as hubby,

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♥My collectioin of brushes, mascara, eyeshadow,lipstick, lipgloss,concealer♥

♥This i love the most and the most convinient is the SunSilk Damage Hair mist ♥

Back then it use to be lotion, so troublesome,

♥ Next would be my all-time favourite deodorant that keeps my BO away. =)♥

♥ Essential Serum, the best serum u can ever get out there,

check out xiaxue's blog for more review on that,

i'm so sticking to this.

it's meant to smoothed out and heal 15cm from the roots,

best thing? it's not oily or greasy,

and it smells NICE!!! ♥

♥ my ALL-TIME favourite perfume given by hubby as a farewell/valentine gift. ♥

I LOVE YOU.

it's really a miracle.

♥ What keeps my skin white and fills it with Vitamin E?♥

Etude's House new O2 White cream. day and night.

smells nice, love it. and it's not creamy, it's gell base. with Vitamin E beads.

♥ Now, make up remover is important,

Even though i don't put heavy make up, we have all that dirt, and foundation or powder that we put.

and i HATE oily make up remover,

This is the water base one.

see how i've used half of it?

LOVE IT!! fast, doesn't smell, not oily, easy, does the job. ♥

♥ Now base is important. =p.

Etude House peach base that smells like peach and closes the pores so dirt and make up don't plugged up ur pores. ♥

and next to it is Loreal mate foundation. LOve that. it has slight rosy color. ♥

♥ Now back to hair stuff,

Me, i use hairdryer, EVERYDAY, and hair straightener everyday too, so quality is important.

REDKEN's EXTREME is the best, applied before hair dryer while damp. and leaves hair fluffy and smooth after blowing hair.

* i don't use this for hair straightening, i use another one before i straighten it* ♥

♥ Now, SUN BLOCK is damn important for me,

to keep my nice nice skin. LOL

Etude house [again] total base that has SPF35 sun block in it. ♥

♥ i do not leave my body out too, Whitening and hydrating body light. Love them, don't stick, easy apply, easy absorbed, ♥

♥ Last but now least, sleeping pack. ♥

to keep my face the nice glow i have everyday.

♥ Thus, these are what i have. well, i don't use them EVERYDAY!! just the skin care and hair care. LOL. i'm so vain.

Lastly, stupid clock that doesn't work anymore.

can't wait for my next clock. i wish i could find the one like hubby's.

LOVE UUUU ♥♥♥

LARVE YOU

♥ I miss you. =(. ♥

TREMENDOUSLY.

MISERABLY.

ADDICTIVELY.

♥MISS you baby snorlex!! ♥

pound pound.

You mean so much to me.

It takes years and months for one to look for the perfect one. but i have found mine.

There are all sorts of people out there. and all sorts of guys out there. But you are the perfect one.

and i'm lucky i found you.

♥You can make me smile when i'm angry, even when i'm so pissed i could punch a wall down. ♥

You would creep up to me, you would mick voice my teddys,

you would say something pretty lame but sweet like ''i'm gonna bite your buttock!''

Just makes you so cute, so adorable and you always end with ''I know you want to smile, i can see a tiny smile there!''

OHHH. and i just can't be pissed at u. Just makes me wanna smooch you on the face.

♥♥

♥You would come up with the most unexpected thing and creep up from behind.

I remember when i was unpacking and you came in with HAZEL,

i bloody hell thought it was a soft toy!!!!

cz it was so cute and adorable.

UNTIL baby hazel moved her head.

i was like. OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!

it's a real puppy!!! a live one!! a pure breed siberian husky

almost scream the skin out of my body.

=p

LOVE YOU BABY

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see how you're the perfect one?

♥ The sweetest you'll ever do, is make me laugh. ♥

i love you baby.

and i'm sorry that i can't make u laugh as much as you make me.

i'm sorry that my jokes are lame and stupid that just annoys u.

♥♥

♥♥ LOOK AT YOU!!!. hahahaa. i just wanna laugh. ♥

see? you never fail to make me smile. and i love u.

xoxo

can't wait to see you baby..

LOVEEEE YOUUUUUUUUUU

forever... i can't express it out in my mind and words cz my mind is just hearts and loves and you.

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part 2

♥ continue from the previous post. ♥

On sunday, we went to Swan valley.

semangat-NYA they wanna go to beach. but i was too lazy to get up. ngek ngek ngek.

so, May picked me up at 11 and we went later on. =D.. heeee

Went to the chocolate factory first. and met up with them.

♥ Then later went on the the restaurant to EAT!!!! ♥

♥ More picture on fb. ♥

ciao

♥ LIANG MOI LIYING ♥

i miss you kaysss..

now no one bring me out go eat and fetch me liao. =DDDDDD

and what happen to your fb? pls update me with ur life.. HAHAHA..

anywaysss.. this pretty pretty liang moi brought me to Ciao Italia on saturday night and swan valley on sunday.

and suet mei flew to perth and heard stories about her work. hahaha.

♥ So here are a few pictures. more on FB. ♥

♥Liying and suet mei. ♥

♥us ♥

♥ and the food. ♥

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♥Last of all, the tiramisu. ♥

apparently, it's the best

but AS YOU ALL KNOW..

i'm not a fan of tiramisu.

so yea.. wanna bring hubby here. =))

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♥♥ Love you♥♥