End of 2010

It's the end of 2010. 

The year of 2011 is here. 

My final year of my degree. 

Another year of love and journey. 

There are quite alot that is going on my mind. 

New Year Resolutions of 2011. 

1. Don't be so clingy. Not the SUPER DUPER kind. 

2. Lose more weight and keep fit. 

3. Build up a better fashion sense.

4. Eat more food. i meant explore ( Even though i said i have to keep fit )

5. Remind myself NOT all things need to be said. 

6. Be more organized. 

7. Be more hardworking. 

8. Be more motivated and creative. 

9. Find out what i really want. 

10. Be a better girlfriend

11. Be able to keep my resolutions. 

LOL. number 11 is the most important among ALL that is listed. 

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Today i realized how you are the one. 

- Nobody knows me better than you, not even myself. 

- I'd be sitting at a corner and you'd know what's on my mind. 

- I'd walk pass something and you'd know if i like it or not. 

- You make me smile when i'm crying by just smiling at me. 

- You make me laugh and smile till my stomach aches. 

- You make me handle all the decisions. 

- You make me wait. 

- You criticize my food but finishing it in the end. 

- You make me sing at the most random time. 

- I can never get mad at you more than 5 minutes. 

- Nobody is as tolerating as you. 

- Nobody is as understanding as you. 

-You'd know which part of the chicken i love the best. 

- You'd know how i want my eggs to be done. 

And the best among everything that i've mentioned. 

- You know the way to my heart.

Happy 3 years baby 

♥♥♥

2010 ending

3 more days till 2011. 

wow. ...

*silence*

That was fast. 

It's been a year. and so many has passed by. 

Like really so many. 

I've learned so much,

i've gained quite a few. 

I've lost some,

and i've gotten back. 

I fell and stood back up.

I laid and fell asleep. 

i ate and took pictures. 

I dressed and shopped.

This year, being 21/turning 21. 

People make such a big deal turning 20. or 21. 

So excited about getting a 'key' and bla bla bla. 

Is weird how mom is traditional in a weird way. 

maybe she just doesn't want it or maybe i'm just old.  

But i don't care!

i am getting this. 

Even if i have to pay it for myself. 

From Thomas and Sabo. 

But first!!

i need to find it first. LOL. , anyone see it please let me know. =) 

It would be greatly appreciated. 

x'mas 2010

Merry Christmas 2010!!

I know it's been a while that i've updated anything/much. 

went to Lj's X'mas 2010 party. 

Wore a red dress from Divina Providencia. Uncle Peter bought it in France. 

Mom alter'd it. 

Well, it is a dress that i only wear once a year i guess. 

But need to keep my figure to stay in it. LOL

So here are some pictures. 

Sorry i didn't bother to photoshop it. 

and there's something wrong with the image sizes. 

Just can't seem to get them right. 

Merry x'mas to everyone. 

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It's been 3 years.
It's the 3rd Christmas we've spent together. and year by year it just seems better.
Although gifts are HARD to get. ♥
But u never fail to surprise me with gifts. It's always out of my expectation.

I know i'm not as great as others in making a really beautiful and creative card which ends up collecting dust in your drawer.
I know i'm not as great as others in getting you a present which you don't use and leave it somewhere in the closet and end up being in the trash by your mom.
I know i'm not as great as others in preparing a two-night candle romantic dinner which ends up having food disaster.
I know i'm not as great as others in dressing up and making you ashamed.

But i know what i'm great of, and that is being able to keep you next to me and have you with me for christmas even if you were reluctant =)

A stranger who you once was who gently took my hand,
As our lives engaged you lit my life and i held both your hands,
Now 3 years has passed, our souls have indeed become one.
How lucky we are, to have each other.
That we have found the love SO true,
that everyone has been looking for.

Thank you baby. i love u. ♥♥♥

with or without

BOXING DAY!!!! 

i am dead tired, my whole body is aching. 

But i just can't sleep. Need to get up. 

BABY PRESENT!!! 

Armani Exchange top. 

Wore it the next day, weeeee =)

Thank u baby. 

I'm loving it. 

Anyways, Don't know to go with bangs or without bangs, Please comment. =)

hello ipoh

So i am back in my baby's arm again 

This morning, boyfriend came to the airport to pick me up after a loOOOOOOOOoong 8 hour flight next to a fat lady who was sleeping the entire time. 

How to ask her to get up for me to go to the toiler. =/

and i hate sitting at the back tail. SO MUCH MOVEMENT, 

my heart was left up there when it moved down. *ugh*

But after everything, dragged myself out of it and waited hell long for the baggage. 

THEY ARE SO SLOW. 

and half way the baggage handler just left somewhere and the luggages where all tumbling over everywhere. geeez. 

And hubby was waiting for me outside at the car this time. 

Went to eat breakfast. such sprit we have. LOL. 

Then, went home to sleep/snooze/nap. 

ahhhh. it was lovely. Back in ur arms again. =)

Lunch time, went to our all time favourite pork noodle at ss15! 

Then pavillion. 

It's the 24th of December already. 

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT???

i can't. 

._.

There is no decorations at home.

There is no christmas tree at home. 

sucks right? i had to put it  up and put it down, and this year i got tired and i had NO TIME. 

Hence, there isn't any tree.

FINE. i'll just draw one by myself. 

Bluek *sticks tongue out*

i don't know why i'm still not sleeping. 

Not like i can hug him to sleep also. =(

but i just wanna wait for him too. 

Hope he text me that he reaches home so i won't be like an idiot waiting. LOL

I LOVE YOU BABY!

tiger

There's nothing wrong with wanting something. 

At least it gives me a motivation to do smth about that. geez. 

For example. i've got two 7's and three 5's for my results. 

Shouldn't i reward myself with smth?

I don't have someone rewarding me with something when i get something good okay?

geez. maybe i should get a key for myself. so i can free myself *lame*

anyway, wants this. Been searching high and low for a NICE color. and something special. 

not just plain pink. 

*hint*

model HLH474-0090

size woman 6 (the smallest size they have)

sigh *stares at it, so near yet so far*

random

Original price $795. After discounted and everything. $608. 

that is $187 cheaper. means it is RM561 cheaper 

.__. don't know why i'm not getting it!

Maybe cz i just can't feel the joy of the boyfriend. 

all he said was ''If you want then you get it"

anyway, wants the gucci one. 

fyi, i'm not trying to be materialistic or anything. 

I just prefer tote bags, and good quality ones. 

me.at.3am

It's been 3 weeks already. and i'm going home tmr.
ARE YOU EXCITED OR NOT???
bet it's just the same to you.

*sigh*
Been quite disappointed with some stuff.
Couldn't get/find the things that i wanted to get. Hope i'll be able to get them in m'sia or the airport.
I suck at gifts/presents/surprise.
whyyyyyyy? =(

It's 3am now here. / 12.52am there.
I am sitting on the bed, wanting to blog. but no idea what to.
HENCE, typing whatever which is coming into my mind.
so, i'd bore you with this.

wow. it's been a year. *silence*
what a year. there are things that i've regretted doing, things i wish i didn't do. and things that i wish i've done.
I'm officially 21!!
carol's graduated.
what's next? my graduation in a year's time. *blueh*
As i sit here in the dark silence, i'm beginning to wonder what i want in life. what i've done for the 21 years in my life.
Childhood of innocence and protective, born with a silver spoon (i'm not trying to brag here or anything sorry if i sound offensive). Rebellious teenage-hood.
And now, uni life with a loving boyfriend.

This year taught me alot of things. Like how much my boyfriend loves me, and has changed for me temporary. HEY! at least he did!.
and this year also taught me, how bad i am and how much i need to improve. How slow i am, how noisy i am, and how complicated i am. *slap face*
I realize how much i knock my head on the wall when i'm sleeping.

Christmas is here. hmmmmmm. *looks around*
not really very christmassy eh?
want to get my mom a vacuum cleaner so i can use it as well, easier for me to clean my room.
but where got time. mom booked my flight so late =/
don't knw what to get the family also.
Know what to get for the boyfriend. so near yet so far. dishhh. *punch my own face*


I miss the days you blog about me. LIKE LITERALLY SPILLING YOUR HEART OUT!.
i guess now u've closed it back. I miss the days being surprised and so happy reading about it. But now going back to your old post and read about it. I always wonder, do you still feel the same? Or is it just something you felt in the past but not anymore.
Maybe i'm just paranoid *hides under the blanket*

But i can't believe we'll be in the same uni. FINALLY. after all this years of waiting. wonders what will really happy.
But i still somehow yet feel u'd be better of at Melbourne. but oh well. If you don't want to say it out i can't do anything to. =) *smiles cheekily*

Off to bed i am. flying off tmr night back home.

Nice guys VS Bad Guys

Was going through Dawnyang's blog and i saw this.
WHICH IS QUITE TRUE!! no offence to guys ok. HAHA. have a laugh

Nice Guy:                             Bad Boy:

CALLS EVERY DAY                       CALLS ONCE EVERY TWO WEEKS
-10 for being desperate               +10 for even calling

MAKES A DATE TWO WEEKS IN ADVANCE     CALLS AT LAST MINUTE FOR A DATE
-10 for being too available           +10 for being popular

HAS A STEADY JOB                      UNEMPLOYED
-10 for being ordinary                +10 for being artistic,
                                      anti-establishment

WANTS TO MEET YOUR BEST FRIEND        WANTS TO DATE YOUR BEST FRIEND
-10 for trying to toady his way       +10 for making you jealous
into your life

WANTS A SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP          CAN'T MAKE A COMMITMENT
-10 for not having found one with     +10 for being a challenge
anybody else

GOES OUT OF HIS WAY TO PLEASE YOU     ONLY PLEASES YOU WHEN HE FEELS
-10 for being dependent               LIKE IT
                                      +10 for independence

TAKES YOU TO EXPENSIVE RESTAURANTS    WANTS YOU TO COOK FOR HIM
-10 for making you wear panty hose    +10 for eating your food

EXTREMELY INTERESTED IN YOUR WORK     EXTREMELY INTERESTED IN HIS WORK
-10 for asking too many questions     +10 for making you a good listener

TALKS ABOUT HIS FEELINGS              NEVER TALKS ABOUT HIS FEELINGS
-10 because his feelings are never    +10 for allowing you to fantasize
in sync with yours                    about how he feels about you

BRINGS YOU ROSES FOR NO REASON        NEVER PROMISED YOU A ROSE GARDEN
-10 for making you feel guilty        +10 for honesty
for accepting gifts

ALWAYS DRESSES NEAT AND CLEAN         DOESN'T CARE ABOUT CLOTHES
-10 for always wearing geeky jeans    +10 for looking great naked

TELLS STUPID JOKES                    TELLS STUPID JOKES
-10 for boredom                       +10 for making you laugh

*BONUS POINTS*                        *BONUS POINTS*
+10 for driving a nice car            +250 for being a great kisser

*TOTAL SCORE*                         *TOTAL SCORE*
Nice Guys: -110                       Bad Boys +370

results of year 2

So fast a year has passed by. 

WOW. i cannot imagine. 

Was just talking to Rachel bout the first time i left. 

ALMOST TEARED AGAIN EH!!!!!

*carol. shhhhh*

wel, anyway, i do hope that 2011 will be different. =)

 Results are OUT!!!!
THANK YOU BABY for all the help that you gave me. <3

Year 3 here we come.

missed you

I miss you. 

It feels like ages since i last camwhored with you and hugged you. 

It feels like forever since i sat down on the couch with you and watch TV without worries of the time passing by. 

I missed you baby. 

 Sucks that me here, you there. 

Not fair. =(

 Can't carry my camera and snap picture of YOU! 

instead of you holding the camera snapping pictures of me HAHAHA

As I stand here and post this.
I've gotta say, pls close this page if you are someone that hates emotional ppl.
At this moment I am crying. And
For what reasonS, I'll be saying them here.

Just because I love soft toys, it seemed like a crime. Is there a reason why I love them? Yes!
I wasn't spooky with toys when I was a kid. Was given one. Till I met a friend when I was 11 who had this really adorable bear name 'snuffles' and she had a few of it in different colors and sizes. I admit I envied her, but she was mice enough to let me hug it amd play with it whenever I went over or sleptover. I guess that's how it all started. During Christmas that year, she bought me the exact same one even though it was a smaller size. Wouldn't believe how attached I was to it. I even brought to school.

It was a long way with snuffles. Dad got really pissed at me for bringing n carrying it everywhere with me that he threw it up the fan. And my white snuffles became black snuffles. Threw it across the room because I didn't do what he wanted. And let's say there was more.

As soon, 1 become 2 and more. Everynight I'll hug it to sleep. I know it's stupid. I feel secure and not naked with it.

When I lost stitches. I was devastated. People just said 'oh! It's just a Teddy bear. Why fuss.' yes. I'm 21. So what? Is there a law for it?

Today I got scolded for getting a polar bear. And ytd when my brother got smth, he was fine. They fussed over a $20 polar bear. What about the $1k plus bag she bought then?

This trip has been lonely. Trying so hard to spend a better time by going to theme parks? But having ur sister who has a bf and a brother who clings on him.

And yes. I'm afraid of snakes, frogs, insect and scream in fear. All u guys is laugh and do wtv shit. Every morning n night I see him hugging her n waking her up. And there she is being a baby wanting him to touch her or cheer her up.

I pick up my phone and call him and get a 'what do u want!'
This moment I'm crying and I dun even dare to call him. It feels like things has changed. I wish things to be back to normal. To have someone to understand me instead of saying 'Ahya! What can u do? Deal with it! Don't interfear with other ppl!' or have someone to tell me they love me n miss me. And someone for me to deh.

But I guess one day he'll get sick of it. And
Maybe that one day is here.



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I miss the days when I'm crying, u come
Over asking what happen and say 'baby don't cry.' instead of saying. 'why u cry? I ask u 3 times u dun say then fine!'


But like u taught me. Ur mouth is not mine. I am in no control. Guess this post is bullshit.


- Posted from iPhone ♡ AilingC. ILY ♡

A little something

Is considering the theme of mobile me I want to use. Still considering if I want to put it up, because I think by that time I won't be in blogger anymore. But there's one thing I am sure of is, if I really get it n would be able to get my own domain, i'd really stop waiting. Partly reason why I'm staying is you, though I know it's stupid. But, let's just say I AM stupid! Not earning much from nuffnang, so doesn't matter to me.

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Haven't been able to get my pictures out of my camera. Will figure a way out soon. For the time being, don't want to leave this blog dead. Been here for a week, it's sunday already. And I've missed the boyfriend. Though he's also in Melbourne, it doesn't help as in I'm not there with him.

Oh well, will be heading to Movie world, Sea World and Wet 'n' Wild for the next 3 days. Hope the whether is fine to for me. Sorry for being picky whether-man:) or whether-god.

Thank god for the waterproof baby rosy. Oh well, doubt I'd be taking any good ones. I did realize that without you, my pictures are crap!!I love u. Love me back! :)


- Posted from iPhone ♡ AilingC. ILY ♡

The Other Side Of Midnight

I came across this news today on facebook that this 22 year old boy killed himself. 

I thought it was just a random joke or post by someone this morning. 

But then I saw 5 people posting different post about it and finally found a blog that wrote about it, and read about it. 

Pictures and information were taken from blogs, not mine. 

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Love is a very strong thing that makes us do many things, 

it pulls us together, 

it breaks out heart, 

it makes us confuse,

it makes us happy,

it does so many uncountable things that i can't even list it out. 

But killing for love is not worth it. Not for a 4 month relationship. 

Though i know i've said i can't live without hubby, 

i'd die without him and all that. 

But the truth is, do you think i'll really kill myself for hubby?

I can tell you, no. 

I'd be depressed, i'd not eat, i'd be lost. i'd quit my job, i'd be crying my eyes out, i'd be in the hospital.

and even if i die, i'd be dying out of depression. 

NOT killing myself when i'm wide alert.

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So here is it, Alviss Kong, a 22 year old boy jumped off a 14 floor building after leaving a status on facebook. 

Breaking the hearts of his parents who raised him for 22 years over a 4 months relationship.

Not just a stable loving relationship. He was rejected first five time of the confession. Do you think she really loved him? or just trying to shut him up?

*resource*

Do you think she'll feel guilty? Do you think she's hiding in her room.

I really do wonder what her parents say. 

p/s. i do not know what's with the plaster on his face. 

Anyway, Guys and girls. 

Ending your life for love is not worth it. 

Hazel

I missed you.
I wish I have u now so I can play with you.
Play fetch and catch with you.
And just sit there watch you being so adorable.
I wonder how long more I can have u.
But u must never forget me!











































I miss you. :(

- Posted from iPhone ♡ AilingC. ILY ♡

inspiration

I was in the plane on the way to Brisbane and was reading a magazine. (don't remember what it was called)

When i came across something that i wanted to share. 

Erik Johansson.

From Sweeden,

A freelance photographer and photo-retouching. 

which i find it really amazing and really inspiring. 

He works mostly personal projects and commercial work. 

ENJOY..