Last thoughts in Ipoh

it's 4am again and i'm here blogging. Thoughts like this are like writing diaries. which are boring to other people.

i've got someone whom i do not know who is it commenting saying that 'he is not worth at all for me to do so. ' Technically, he/she is saying that i should put all the the effort into it and he's not worth everything. Sometimes i do wonder why not just tell me? or e-mail it to me rather than just leave a comment there with no other reply or explanations. i do not even know if the comments were made up by someone i know either.

On and off, i get comments like 'catherine, you're a fucking bitch' by someone call xxx
=__= i don't mind you calling me a bitch, but pls do state your name.
but it doesn't bug me because i do not know who it is anyway, might be a friend playing a prank.

I know my blog is about me, my life, mostly about my love relationships, where i've been, what i've eaten and so on. but MOSTLY, about my love relationships. I think 9 out of the 10 random non-spams comment i get is about him. Either i'm a bitch and i do not deserve him, or he's not worth all my trouble and shits. Or somewhat or another.

People have called me stupid, people have called him a jerk. what thing for all i know. I love him, so do not speak bad of him in front of me. I know i'm stupid, but this is my choice and i know what i am doing. If things would not work out, i will walk out not regretting it. I will be devastated, i will be sad. but i will not stay and make things worst.

I love being in love with him despite all the things that he's done and didn't do.
but to me, it doesn't matter, because deep down inside me. i know what i want right now. and is to spend time with me.

plus, he is not a pretty bad guy after you know him ASIDES from the fact that he bullies people.
SO i do hope, if you have anything, come up to me, do not just leave a msg anonymously. Nobody forces you to read my blog, i do thank you for stopping by.


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in 24 more hours, i'd be in room 42A Donn Watts in my room. asleep.